Saturday, January 31, 2004
im so damn tired its 3 am and i just got home from an awesome but tiring day.played squash then went for an acjc play at barker. the actors were darn impressive but i just didnt understand the plot.then azad,adam keith,me and the 2 j2s went town and we met karen shuling michelle and becky where we proceeded to stone at spinellis.after that i went so shulings house and we sat down and had this really good heart to heart talk, as well as a bowl of horrible but tasty instant mee and bak kua!
i had 7/8 of a mind not to blog today cause im exhausted but a friend needs to be written about today so here goes.
todays friend is acjc's very own lennard quek hsien-min.haha i first remember lennard when we went for soccer trials with gareth and gareth and i got in but lennard didnt. this somehow amazes me up till today cause having played with lennard for the whole of my sec3/sec4 life, lennard has been this amazingly gifted soccer player.and believe me when it comes to soccer, my compliments are limited to only the best, so yeah.
lennard is this incredibly intelligent person who never never once refused to help me with my homework whenever i needed help. his grades are amazing and thanks to him, my grades improved. he even tried to explain ss to me which is like, my worse subject ever.
lennard was my chem lab partner for the whole of sec4, and i tell you, we had the funnest time ever man. from making blue crystals out of copper(II) sulphate solution and aqueous ammonia, or pouring too much chemical X into the burette and it overflowing onto the bench,or playing afool during QA and VA and then giving phony fake readings like 20.0 when the actual titration reading was 25.0.lennard was the best lab partner i could ever wish for.oh haha and u knoe during prelims prac, he was two benches behind me and he shouted the answer to me.and it was wrong!!! quek!!it was catalyst, not reducing agent!!! haha and when lennard inhales the fumes, he takes such a deep breath, he starts choking profusely and proceeds to curse in hokkien. ohh and he insists there is one reaction which gives off a 'potato chip' smell.haha and we always wear the safety goggles in lab which makes us look like nerds la!
lennard and i have everything in common. we like the same people and hate the same people. we even agree on people who we think are really ugly! haha we both hate arsenal and we both hate wayne tan haha no la thats not true.waynes a nice guy.my upper secondary life would have been miserable without lennard cause hes so hilarious he makes everyone laugh and he brightened up our classroom as im sure he is doing the same now for his class in acjc.
lennard has names for everyone in class and they're quite amusing names. haha i shant say who la but we all know.i also failed to mention that lennard is this crazy athlete who got 18th today at acjc cross country. well he was 2nd in last years barker cross country. and he sprints real fast too!
haha lennard was so ons bout going to trinity college but now he has abandoned me la so i hate you for that quek! haha whatever it is, im glad i have had a friend like lennard as hes someone who will be there for you through all your ups and downs, as he has proven in his friendship to me. i hope i never lose contact with quek cause that would be losing a great friend.thanks for everything quek-kia.
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3:16 AM
Thursday, January 29, 2004
the friend i shall write bout on the 29th of january is nigel brendan boey xunwen.nige has been such a great friend ever since he walked into 2a2 in the third term of 2001.i remember as the new boy everyone was interested in nige and joshua and i started talking nonsense with nige la.haha nige was so so so quiet in sec2 but he eventually opened up to some of us.
nigel is this amazing tennis pro and he was the one who got me into the tennis team even though i was a horrible player.haha and i used to dream of partnering him in doubles for the school!nigel is amazing to watch when he's on the court.totally unlike his daily self, nige is so much more aggresive on court as compared to the soft spoken guy in the classroom.
haha ok nigel here is like the epitome of coolness!haha seriously he buys stuff from unheard of brands then after that everyone buys it.in a way, he's like one season ahead of everyone else.he's the first person i saw wearing oakleys in sec2 and he was the first person to carry a crumpler to school this year. haha he got me hooked on crumplers and ryan ho totally idolises nige. ryan copied his oakleys,his crumpler, his tennis shoes, and everything else la!too much to mention.
in sec3, nigel and i sat together the whole year!haha i remember we chose our own seats at first then when either erin woodford or audrey lim changed our seats, i bluffed her that the sunlight reflected onto the whiteboard and i couldnt see and i suggested that i change to the seat next to nige,and it was granted. so nige and i sat next to each other in class the whole year and it was SO damn fun. we had two fans,a canteen table.and we used to like stand on the chair and topple it over.wah it was damn scary la.
haha oh and for a period of time we all pretended to be wrestlers and i cant remember who nige was but i was edge and then we always teamed up against ryan ho.once i speared ryan ho and he was down on the floor for a few minutes.its true you can ask nige! haha and our seating area was the 'red light district man'.
our area had joshua,brian,cj,me and nige and it was like the most havoc area of class. haha oh and nige always took ryan ho's pencil case/waterbottle/etc and hid it.but nige was well behaved when the teachers were around which is why he always got better grades than me.
this year, nige and i sat together during social studies,emath,chem and occasionally during lit and english.
haha social studies was the most fun cause we sat at the back of class and we were both talking and smsing and we had the blindest teacher who just went on talking. and she looks like martha kent from smallville.
chem lab was fun.we always poured chemicals onto ryan ho's pencil case/bag/file haha ours was the havoc bench with lennard me nige and ryan.but we had this great teacher called mr yian and he hardly ever punished us.haha oh and everytime during pe, i would always laugh at nige when he plays soccer but im only joking.everyone knows nige is a terror down the wing hahaha. :P
haha ohh nigel always would lend an ear during ss classes when i had girl problems especially with the one two years my senior.haha yeah and he would tell me to win her back.haha but that was then la. and i havent always been there for nige, when he needs to confide in someone.cause that stupid nige will go tell ryan ho!why never tell me huh!
now nige is the coolio of cjc and he has this babe in his class and its not fair!!! haha its good that nige doesnt like her cause then i can chase.haha nah just kidding but seriously,im glad nige and i still talk cause he's been absolutely one of my bestest friends, whom i can count on anytime. hes so loyal hes stuck with me through thick and thin and this is one pal i have NEVER argued with before.apart from yelling at him while playing soccer haha but as goldmember said in austin powers 3, 'this ones a keeper!'. haha yeah thanks for the friendship and always being there nige!
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4:58 PM
good morning.i just woke up like 5 mins ago.ive never felt happier in my life but ive never felt sadder in my life before.i just woke up because of a dream and i dreamt of her,seriously.you know how all those singers write songs bout dreaming bout the girl and this time it really happened.its really cliched but she really appeared in my dream.i got to write it down cause i dont wanna ever forget this dream.
she came to my house with some other people just for fun and then she was the last to leave and it was pouring and i held an umbrella and waited for her while she waited for a taxi.somehow, we were going to watch the same movie with our families.
so then the scene changed to this really nice and gigantic cinema with many empty seats so i was seated two seats away from her and like halfway during the show she asked me to sit next to her.and then she held my hand and our faces were so close together our cheeks were touching.sigh this sounds really silly yet i find it amazingly sweet. then she said it was really cold and dont ask me why but there was this blanket so we used it.
and then the best part was when we kissed,three times in exact.i can still feel it as though it happened just a second ago.the worst thing is it seemed so damn real.then the movie finished and we left and i remember my heart beating super fast and i was skipping for joy.then whilst in the carpark, i smsed shumin and told her 'amazing amazing',obviously referring to the kiss.and then when i got home i got like four sms-s from her(not shumin but her).the first one said 'you know i love you' and blah blah. the second one said 'dont play too much money on mahjong' and before i got to read the third and fourth messages, i somehow said 'please dont let this be a dream' and lo and behold, i awoke.
mann it was so so real! even my handphone vibration felt exactly the same. i feel really sad now cause it didnt actually happen and like, perhaps it'll never happen. but i seriously wanna thank God cause even if it never happens, at least he showed me what it might have been like being in love with her, and it sure was nice.He at least showed me what it was like to love someone, and be loved back, and for that im grateful.
this totally isnt a figment of my imagination or my own creation.this dream actually happened.and you know what?sure i had many crushes before but when it came to dreaming bout my first kiss,i just knew it would be her.and it was.what more can i ask for?i now know what it feels like to love her, even though if it was just a dream.i dont think anything can get me down now cause i'm really really happy.i mean seriously, she held my hand and she said the words 'i love you', i dont know what ive done to deserve such a beautiful dream but thanks God. seriously. im eternally satisfied now.
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8:57 AM
i like listening to old songs.i just heard five's 'until the time is through'. it was so meaningful.
now and forever until the time is through/i'll be standing here
waiting and never give up my faith in you/trying to make things clear
without your love i'll be half a man/maybe one day you will understand
and it has really meaningful lyrics like 'i'll be waiting' and 'give me a moment before you go/theres something you ought to know' and 'now and forever i'll be here for you/until the time is through'.really sad but on the contrary it made me smile when i heard it cause it has so much meaning. its as though this song understands me cause every emotion im experiencing is conveyed in this song.
on another note, five's 'keep on moving' is really good. i heard it this afternoon and its really cheerful and uplifting and it made me happy for quite awhile.
today was a very slack day, i stayed home the whole day.later around dinner, my good friend hoon came over and he whacked me in dreamcast and then he loitered around until now before going home. he's one of my brothers friends who has come to treat me like his very own younger brother and i'll miss him lots when im gone, just like the rest of my friends.
was on the phone with shumin, fiona the j2 and adam. any conversation with adam is a disaster. and when its conference, it gets even funnier.adam and i were comparing who had the bigger fanbase in acjc and looks like we're pretty on par with both our enrollments reaching nearly 300 each. =P
yeah but it was fun talking with them cause i've been really bored this few weeks and any form of human interaction is definitely welcome. shumin is a smurf and fiona's pikachu and well adam's johnny bravo so you could tell we were having some sort of cartoon network meeting. oh yeah im scooby doo...
havent played football in quite awhile. let me tell you bout my favourite players.
wayne tan joon yong(fullback/centreback/thinkshecanplaycentreforward):wayne is an unorthodox defender. most defenders are no-nonsense,wayne however is full of nonsense. he likes to dribble across his penalty box and when a striker comes he plays a back pass to the keeper which is horrendously short. if you hear someone shouting WAYNE from the other penalty box, chances are its me. wayne is an attacking fullback which means he ventures up to join the attack ever so often but till this day, he hasnt scored.
shah azad bin shahjihan(sweeper/centreback/handballgoalie):azad is the great wall of arabia.no man can dribble round the circumference of azad without tiring.azad's giant goalkicks often reach the other goal, thus wasting a good opportunity to build up an attack. azad's tackling and marking are praised throughout the world but his pace leaves much to be desired. azad scores quite frequently but azad still marvels at my left foot outstep shot or the many tricks i do which make me look like aimar.
keith jon lew liew ji(fullback/midfield/poser):despite being in the middle of a soccer match, keith always takes the time pose for the cameras to satisfy his fans who want more 4R coloured shots of him. figures why hes such a horrible soccer player but hey, you cant have everything in life rite.keith is the amazing fullback who got in to azmy's squad in sec2 but didnt play a single competitive match.anyway, coloured glossy prints of keith looking in the sky while the ball hits him 'down there' are going for $5 for 3R, $10 for 4R and $50 for 8R.comes with a free autographed photo frame by who else but keith.
ryan ho zhi chao theng theng(defensivemidfield/solo-kia):the steven gerrard/harry kewell of 4a3,ryan ho certainly has no lack of confidence in dribbling. what he lacks is control, speed and vision thus making him and unlikely candidate for playmaker.nevermind nevermind,ryan can still play midfield although now his job is to stick his backside in front of the opponents and stop them from scoring.a thankless task but somebody has to do it.ryan occasionally grabs a goal or two from one of his forays upfield.hey.at least he score more than wayne tan.
tan choon 'ruggggbyyyy' WAH(leftback/rightback/bapok):bernard with her killer left foot ram which travels the whole court and hits the glass panel. bernard's favourite phrase is 'im a man!' sorry to disappoint but this is the only lady player in our team. she is one of the fastest and fittest players but she is scared of pushing the opponents. if she played slightly more aggresively,there is no doubt that bernadette would become one of the most feared defenders in the league.bernardette's many pasttimes including polishing her nails and trying on lipsticks.
nigel brendan boey bodur xun wen(fullback/winger/tennispro/soccernotsopro):officially, nige has the longest name in the team.nige looks like barry ferguson but plays like phil neville.seriously.once he had like 30 shots on goal but none were on target.and when he finally got one on target, the keeper saved it! i think nigel did eventually score this year so clap clap.when nige plays midfield,its like asking seaman to attack.but when nige plays fullback, he is rock solid. when we played against 4a1, either one of the twins (jaya or mulia) were up against nige and they hardly got a sniff of the ball.which is why, nigel is the phil neville of 4a3.wait till you see nige play tennis though.he serves so fast it takes your pants off.
lennard quek-kia hsien ming(attackingmid/forward/raul/torres/vandervaart/teamjoker):my strike partner, quek-kia is one you shouldnt mess with.he is a complete forward.when he's on the ball, his control and million and one tricks bamboozle every defender. during corners, his aerial threat is an advantage to us. and when he's not happy, he will kick the opponents leg which is good for us too! lennard and i have an understanding similar to raul and ronaldo.and between the two of us, we scored 95% of the teams goals.
lennard koped the no7 jersey from me so no choice i have to wear no53.
adam kuang qiang syon jamil dadadee dadadaa(reserve/substitute/extra):adam thinks hes soccer is damn good.its true that he can dribble past everyone but thats cause everyone is on the floor laughing at adams horrible dribbling.adam is the first person on the team to pick a fight but also the first to run away. ohwells what can we do?extra is extra what...
eric chang kungfu kuang fu(goalkeeper):eric's reflexes are lightning quick and his positioning and awareness is brilliant. known to pull of amazing saves, eric is well known for his 'butterfly' throw which even though covers great distances, really looks gay.somebody get him a style coach please.maybe we can ask adam.after all adam is so extra he got nothing else to do.
karen lim meixian(cheerleader/watergirl):nuff said...
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12:13 AM
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
todays lucky friend will be joshua dizon he enhe. joshua and i were classmates from sec1 thru to sec4 and despite a couple of misunderstandings, our friendship's really strong now.from the first day back in 2nd jan 2000 when he called me donald duck, that i'll always remember, josh.
joshua has always made class bearable.since sec1, teachers would be SO SO boring but with joshua around, class would always be lively. maybe a joke or someone to suan, josh would never fail to put a smile on my face.
josh's arch enemy in sec2 was ms tay kim choo.once when ms tay asked josh if he had been present for swimming meet and josh was like 'no madam, but i won five medals'.and ms tay sent him to the discipline master.haha yeah sharp wit like that is significant of josh.
and ms tay always sent josh to mrs ravi, be it for colourful shoes, ankle socks etc. but while josh had an arch enemy in sec2, he had a darling too. mrs ivon lew, our art teacher. haha yeah josh would look forward to every friday when we had double period art and he would always stay back and ask questions despite it being recess.haha and josh did other 'colourful' things which i shant reveal.
in sec3, every teacher was josh's enemy.ng li eng, theresa 'squaw woot' ving,donkey wong, the whole lot of them. and it wasnt only the teachers it was the students too. lennard, wayne,ryan etc...
on to sec4 and josh made two more enemies in kusal and hiro.haha but josh was my partner in crime in writing silly poems bout sri lankans and japanese. joshua's command of the english language is very remarkable though he plays it down alot.and hes such a talented violinist/guitarist.joshua's arch enemy in sec4 was probably cecillia tan. their wars often took place at humans room number i forgot at our social studies lessons. and it was ridiculous la. and once carl was arguing with cecillia tan and josh was chanting 'fight fight fight' at the side.josh was my ss partner and we sure had lots of fun.
if you ever walk past the barker sports hall and see this remarkably handsome face on the wall, it belongs to joshua dizon he enhe.so go kiss it all you want, but dont dirty it. the future generations need to see who won the barker 50m freestyle for sec3s in 2002.
and when ng eng chin called joshua 'dizon', josh actually reprimanded the principal.dont mess ok.
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11:52 PM
as of today, i'll give a tribute to each of my good friends everyday.todays lucky friend is adam syon jamil kuang qiang.
i knew adam since he walked into barker on the first day of school, both of us not from any of the ac primaries and therefore, slightly outcasted.of course that didnt remain for long but still, adam and i hit it off from day one. both of us thought we were gorgeous.its true.
adam and i had a misunderstanding at the end of sec2 but it cleared up and ever since the start of 2003, adam has always been there for me.whenever i need a partner to suan genxian or eric,adam shows up and delivers his line right on cue.whenever i need someone to play a round of pool, adam will put pool over studying.whenever i need someone to talk to at night,adam is always there, ready for a conversation.
i havent always been there for adam.whenever he wants to go clubbing, im one of the first few he asks, but sadly,i always decline his invitation.clubbings just not my kinda thing and for that, i wanna apologise to adam.still, that doesnt make him look at me as less of a 'brother' and thats the kind of guy adam is. always talking bout brotherhood, and meaning it(well most of the times anyway).
when adam is around, i seem to have so much fun.be it at ac orientation or just one of our silly outings, adam makes life interesting. his knack for suaning people can be quite amusing at times,unless you're on the receiving end. adam is this ass who ruins all our mahjong games by acting real cool when actually he cant even read the chinese character on the tile.
ohwells, i'll stop here.but adam, you're the first one i wrote about!theres no need to thank me, you've always been there..
ohh and a word of advice to everyone.if you're leaving for overseas ever in your life, dont ever listen to 'leaving on a jet plane'.i just did.
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12:45 AM
its amazing how anyone can go from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows within a few moments. just talked to minyi online.she warned be no to get too involved, not to get my hopes up.you knoe-affairs of the heart.min's always looked out for me and she cares that i dont get hurt cause she knoes i've always had a fragile heart.
im lying in bed writing this now, and thanks to min, im really sad. nah im not blaming her. i should thank her really. but im just trying to say im sad now after talking to her.
have you ever thought bout somebody so much you toss and turn around in bed at night, wishing that very person was doing the same, thinking bout you?and even if that person wasnt, has thinking of that person just relieve you of all your worries and troubles?thats the way it is for me.
when i think of her,i just smile.as simple as that. she doesnt know of course but just the sight of her face, or the sound of her voice, and how her smile shines, those things just make life worthwhile. i could do without lots of things, but one thing i couldnt do without is to be able to sms her anytime and talk.
on the other hand, have you ever liked someone so much it just hurts so so badly. all my friends tell me when they break up it hurts like hell. yeah, i suppose it does.but at least you had experienced love, the person you loved, loved you in return. it sure as hell beats loving someone, and getting nothing in return. try loving a wall.
you devote all your time and energy in hope of pleasing that particular someone but no matter how hard you try, all your efforts go to waste.you ever experienced that? with every new day you wake up and hope, maybe she'll finally like me today. well, if only i was ever taught to live in reality,maybe i'd be hurting much less today.but nah, i believe in fairytales. i live in my very own dreamland. i still believe that one day she'll eventually like me.yeah you ever think this way too? try going through this emotions for three years straight.it started in august 2000.you do the math.ohwells, who am i trying to kid... she'll never like me
still, i dont care. have it anyway you like.im gonna continue liking her. a girl as fine as her deserves to be liked.dont matter she has no feelings for me. dont matter she treats me like dirt. dont matter that min says she has a boyfriend.anyway, im listening to simple plan's 'i'd do anything' right now. quite an apt song.
im been writing bout lots of sad stuff so i should really change but i cant help it.life's been quite sad this few days but of course when im happy i'll write bout happy things.
i hope one day she'll see.i hope one day she'll realise.that with her, i've only ever been sweet, patient, understanding,whatever.one day.believe me.one fine day.
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12:25 AM
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
hey.todae was quite a fun day la.i had to go to the orthodontist in the morning la so now my teeth are aching like dont knoe what.
i went ac todae in outside clothes and i actually walked past gurmit singh and his class.thankfully he didnt see me.otherwise i would have been chasen out i bet.
met azad keith and titus and we all called a cab and went town.we all went to wheelock and titus left so azad keith and i went to sakae sushi. adam joined us later and it was damn fun la. eating and talking cock and ordering 'takoyaki!!' and 'mushisushikayazuki!!!' with a damn off japanese accent. haha and like the staff there are damn irritating la.'if theres wastage we'll charge'. okaeee like i didnt knoe. and adam keith and azad were all talking bout what happened in school and it seemed so fun i realli feel like im missing out.
ohh and ac today i saw joel and david,my two favourite seniors! haha david kwok was like this perfect vice head prefect la! he was understanding and knew why sometimes i didnt want to certain tasks. he never blamed me for questioning authority and for that i respect him.
joel cheang is a totally different case man! what a big slacker and thankfully i learned from him. haha he was super nice and all, and never liked to listen to the big shots if he didnt think it made sense. i think i was his successor and between the two of us you werent find a bigger pair of slacker prefects. haha it explains why our term as prefects ended prematurely. haha and like both of them are damn popular with the girls at ac la!
ohh and i cooked dinner for my parents todae. haha it wasnt as disastrous as it might have been so yeah, not too bad la!
ohh haha its been raining cats and dogs this few days and karen wouldnt lend me her file to like shelter from the rain so im sick now.and now u knoe what kind of evil sadistic person she is. haha im only joking. shes nothing like that and shes gonna be captain of hockey hahahahaha. :P
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8:47 PM
Monday, January 26, 2004
i bet you watched spiderman.the part in the hospital where mary-jane watson asks peter parker what he said bout her to spiderman.and he said the best thing bout mary-jane is when you look in her eyes, you never know what you're gonna get.you feel happy, but sad at the same time. you feel excited, but frightened at the same time.i guess thats the way i feel bout someone.
when i look into her eyes, i feel joy yet heartache at the same time.joy cause im looking into the eyes of the most beautiful girl in the world, but heartache too, cause i'll never get to call her mine.
when i look into her eyes, i feel excited yet nervous at the same time.excited cause im in the presence of the girl i love, but nervous cause i cant behave normally when shes around.
and u knoe the last part when mary-jane says when she was up on the bridge and the one person she thought about was peter cause he's always been the one who has stood by her through everything. i wish she'd realise someday that i have always been standing by her, and will continue to do so, forever.
sigh this must seem really nonsensical to you.sorry.anyway,jason mraz is really good.love 'the remedy'. love 'you and i both' even more.
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11:42 PM
okok..first real blog ever..hope it goes alright..
yesterday my pal eric flew off to sydney where he'll be studying forever and ever..(or at least until university)
it was a sad sad day basically cause we've been buddies for awhile.let me tell you the story bout eric and me.
eric and i couldnt stand each other when we first got to know one another. eric was always in the cool clan and i,well,was not. i couldnt stand eric cause of his ego, his buaya-ness, his fakey friendly manners. eric couldnt stand me cause i was rude,immature,childish.ever since the start of sec2, we were arch enemies.
somehow by some divine intervention, eric and i got to like each other more as we got older. his ego deflated and i grew up. most of our seniors predicted that we would turn out good friends. they were right. eric and i got really really close last year.i thought about the countless times at coffee club at wisma when eric and i would be mugging our brains out for the O levels. even now as i write this, a sad smile crosses my face.memories like those are for us to cherish.these kinda things are once in a lifetime. eric would ALWAYS order his rambutan freeze and once i remember, he ordered calzone but complained that he had eaten better ones elsewhere.some say eric is blunt, but to me, he's frank. and i rather he be frank, than be two faced.
and those sleepovers at my house and all those packets of japanese instant noodles! sigh how i taught eric chemistry and eric taught me social studies. and how we studied so well together but the moment genxian came over we couldnt study but instead sang songs and watched rugby.still, those were memories i'll always look back upon.even if i fail my Os cause i didnt study when i should have been, at least i was spending time with my two best friends.(sadly friends leave,and im not talking bout eric.but more on that next time)
i was just talking to eric online but he had to go sleep.thats alright cause at least i got to talk to him. there's much more i have to say but its struggling to come out. i guess im already starting to have writer's block.
until next time, if you're ever lucky enough to find a friend like i found in eric, thank God and consider yourself blessed. from enemies to pals, this fairytale beats cinderella anytime. :)
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9:32 PM
okok..main reason why i set up this blog was cause i have no school and being at home everyday has basically turned me into a sloth who has lost all the creativity and intelligence i once had(or thought u had).
i love to write so basically i'm just going to write whatever i feel like writing whenever i want to. read it if you like.if you dont nevermind
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9:21 PM
