Wednesday, July 28, 2004

eric u knoe why i dont get a tagboard? cos two of my friends have tagboards on their blogs and some bastard people with so much free time go and slam them on their own tagboard u knoe! and u knoe me, i got tooooo many enemies. i think i'll get slammed as many times as u tag la. so thats one reason against getting a tagboard.
so anyway, due to late night msn chatting again, i failed to wake up for bio lab, which is sooo important cos everyone lab weighs a percentage in my final year marks. so i better go beg for an mc tomorrow or i'll just be screwed. but i did go for my other 2 classes so thats not too bad although bio lecture was abit of a torture cos i needed to pangsai. haha ok enuff of the crudeness.
shumin should change her name to shumean cos she is very very mean! i knoe we have to be realistic but you musnt discourage eric like that! haha eric im an angel ok, i support you, or as lee hock joo pronounces it, sar-pport.
i dont knoe, sometimes it feels right, but then its not. its happened before where i was so damn sure it was gonna happen and then i realised my gut feeling was wrong la, and i got hurt in a long long motherbird process. how do u actually knoe when its right? or do u risk it all and plunge in and hope it turns out good? i dont knoe man, the feeling's right, but something from the past tells me im wrong once again.
studied with lee and mah today but not much studying done la. but i did do two chapters of bio notes so that aint bad. ohh i think im gonna aim for science next year. i was kinda living in dreamland when i told myself  i'd do medicine or law or veterinary science, but i gotta be realistic la. i screwed myself up by choosing all the science subjects that were needed to get into medicine when basically, my science sucked as i was always more of a humanities person. so now, i have no choice but to make the most out of everything. my grades are average of 60 plus now. to get into science i would need to score around 75% on average which isnt that difficult, and with abit more effort and consistency i should reach that. and from science i can branch out to many other types of science like err botany or zoology, which really interests me. animals are something i like. so yesh i think i have gotten my wake up call(although i thought i got my wake up call many times before).
so time for me to get down to work. nothings impossible if you really put your heart to it. and it doesnt only apply to studies. haha ;)
gabriel out!
 
 



i got a sweet tooth and a taste for you
 
today was a terrible in soccer. well i played well lar, but i got whacked a thousand and one times. i am aching all over. first i got elbowed in the face while heading from a corner and my braces cut both lips and it started bleeding like mad and this guy from my team kept going "oh man" everytime i walked past him. and then i was running and dennis ran past me and i stepped on his foot, which wasnt the flat ground i was expecting, so my left foot gave way and i sprained it. went off the pitch for 3 min, went on again, and withing a few minutes, loose ball was around chest level, i stuck my head in, and yonsen came banging into me. that one hurt quite abit, but i forgive  yonsen, cos he always teaches me maths last time. and then i tackled jaya and fell down and got my weekly abbrasion on the leg. and the last of all, i got kneed on the knee, which despite sounding very amusing and comical was rather pain. so yes, good day of soccer today. but today was terrific tuesday for that very sweet reason. and today was more special. haha it was more special. eric knows why, i told him last nite. it was a planned thing.
and my team was a joker team despite having people like vicky, velix, ck and aaron. for like 3 games, we went on for one min and lost and had to go out. it was so aggravating it was quite funny. aiyo i tell you im in such a state of melancholy. ok is melancholy the right word to use? i miss secondary school so much!
i miss recess time with gen xian and eric, or when i dont sit with them, its with nigey, lennard, fats and wayne. i miss the dunearn campus as well, 3 out of 4 years were spent there, i'll be damned if i had few memories. doing latecoming duty with eric in sec2 and always crossing the overhead bridge to check for latecomers. and then tim chek will come with his high pitched voice and ask eric and i why we are slacking. and then all those pe classes, at dunearn and barker road campus. the old futsal court where we broke the science lab windows! ah the list of memories goes on.
i had four beautiful years at barker. and it past in a flash. and the memories arent even sufficient. i only have one year at trinity. im into my third term, and before i knew it, its already half of the third week gone. damn im gonna have to get my ass started on studying.
alrite time to go to bed. the dreaded wednesday lab classes i have to wake up for. i declare wednesdays as wretched wednesdays.
 
i think ive found my bubbles. gabriel out! :)
 

Monday, July 26, 2004

alrite internet is working again so thats one thing that makes me happy.
one thing that doesnt make me happy is the fact that i cant wake up on monday mornings. this is the second week in a row i have missed maths1 tutorial cos my alarm rang at 815 and i just said i'll sleep awhile longer and then by the time i wake up, class has started already, and i see no point in going for classes late. anyhow, since i missed maths, i only had one other class today, english and that was pretty good. my english teacher, whos my mentor is great, and the essay psortion i did on the last lesson was 'great work, gabriel'. so thats another thing to be happy about.
my parents are flying down here next wednesday and i cant wait to see them so thats yet another thing that makes me happy. i think when u grow older, you mature and you start to appreciate your parents more. how many 10 year old kids hate their parents? how many 30 year old folks actually quarrel with their parents? you do appreciate all they've done for you as you get older and i am thankful for two parents who have never wanted anything but the best for me.
i could go and list all the big things in life that made me happy but i realised that very minor things in life do make you happy, just sometimes being caught up in reality hides the many minute things that make your life content. more than one cup of coffee a day makes me very happy. haha this will be gross but having a good shit after a bad stomachache makes me happy too. err smoking with robin everynight at the staircase without fail makes me happy too. all very small, minor, everyday occurences which i carry out without even stopping to think twice about them, but they actually do make me very content with life.
i used to be disappointed with everything, crestfallen everyday.  that might have been an excuse for my lack of motivation to study. now that i couldnt be happier with the way my life is headed at the moment, i guess im out of excuses to slack. so gab, its time you produced the results.
anyway, tomorrow is tuesdays. tuesdays are terrific. terrific tuesdays. terrific tuesdays make me a very happy boy. for countless reasons. but cause tuesday is the day of the week where i play soccer with all my soccer kakis. and playing soccer makes me very happy. even though im so serious i get angry when randy dribbles too much, or when dwin doesnt defend, or when the joker who doesnt wanna play keeper lets in a silly goal on purpose. and i get so frustrated playing soccer with my soccer kakis. but i still love my soccer kakis. cos my soccer kakis make me happy. and i still love my soccer. cos my soccer makes me happy. and then after soccer on tuesdays is soccer gang dinner at lygon or chinatown. and we just eat together and have friendly banter. very very nice. tuesdays are all the more special for a sweet little reason :)
having eric to talk to online also makes me very very happy. i dont knoe, its just like talking to anyone else online, but when its eric, i get very happy. cos eric despite all his bluntless is deep down, the sweetest thing alive. and i love him to pieces. and i am gay. gay as in happy-gay not gay-gay. i declare eric will jump 7m in 7 weeks time and i declare eric shall go for what he thinks is wrong cause i say he should.
talking to ryan ho on the phone also makes me happy. cos that adorable chub is so amusing. "in my generation it was yankee doodle". and talking bout weird parents. i dont stop laughing with ryan. but ryan, please stop sounding so miserable. you remind me of myself a few months back, and it wasnt a very pretty sight. so smile la, life aint that bad.
eric remembered by birthday haha im so amazed. so i shall return the favour. eric's birthday was on 25th of june. it was exactly one month ago. those who have not wished him please go and wish him a happy belated 17th birthday. and today was gen xians birthday. he wasnt online so i cant wish him and the only way to prove that i remembered is to write it here. so happy 17th birthday yu gen xian. i knoe you're the coolest guy in jjc, but if me and eric and you were in ac, we would be cocks. so stop thinking you're so cool haha and stop blinking your eyes when u talk to people.
 
"sometimes to do the right thing, we have to let go of our dreams"
haha darn right man...darn right. i knoe i did the right thing though. i didnt knoe it back then, but i do know. and i did let go of my dream. but i guess i found a bigger dream.
as much as blogging makes me happy, sleeping makes me happy too. so i shall go sleep otherwise i wont have energy for terrific tuesday tomorrow. and see, i listed so many little things that happen everyday which make me smile. of cos, like shumin, you could think of the BIG things that make u smile too. gosh i could list a few. but u could also think of things that u dont really notice of throughout the course of the day, but when you think about it, they do make you happy. and then you realise life aint that bad. its actually quite sweet :)
 
"i'm gonna take this moment, and make it last forever
im gonna give my heart away, and pray it'll stay together
cause you're the one good reason, you're the only girl that i need
cause you're more beautiful than i have ever seen
im gonna take this night, and make it evergreen"
evergreen-willyoung

Sunday, July 25, 2004

alrite my internets down so im at wei an's room now. he just got back this morning and we went for tea/coffee just now. so good to catch up with him. ok just wanted to say my internets down so i might not post too frequently for the time being.
 
gabriel out! :)

Thursday, July 22, 2004

i've been unwell for the past few days and its kinda annoying. cant go for classes cause i cant concentrate, but i cant bring myself to do self study cause i feel so lethargic all i ever do is lie in bed. and that cheapskate doctor that saw me was a real cheapskate. she said had a "viral dont knoe dont knoe what" that would last for roughly 3 weeks. and the next things she does? give me an mc for one miserable day. that was yesterday so i had to go back and get another mc todae. disgusting dr flower man! her name is seriously flower!
 
ahh im feeling like damn nostalgic now, not in the lovey-dovey sense, but like the normal kind. ok never mind... wei an's coming back on sunday morning and he's so looking forward to it. my best friend in melbourne is coming back! its so ironic that the two of us were so pessimistic and crestfallen when he first came here. everything we wanted, and everything we had, were back in singapore. the relationships, the friendships, the cliques, all that stuff. and now, that bugger is telling me he cant wait to be back here. partly cause stuff in singapore is shitty for him, but he actually said he misses melbourne. and thats the magic of it all. things worked out in the end.
but thats not always the case. fattyman ryan ho is leaving spore back to perth on saturday again and he's bitching to me online now about how he doesnt wanna go back. maybe its cause he found a girlfren back in singapore and hes not telling me about her. ahh but there you have 2 different people with the exact same situation but very contrasting reactions. so it kinda depends..
 
and the thing that made me most nostalgic of all was reading in esther's blog that she would be leaving to study overseas soon as well. it kinda brought back the memories i had in the weeks leading up to my first departure. all the doubts, the worries, the frustrations, and most of all, the tears. haha the memories will all come flooding back prior to your leaving, and the tears will flow freely. and the very night before u leave, haha thats hell. you would wish you never even done such a thing in the first place. and then, the one thing worse than that? the airport. that is the ultimate worst feeling i ever had. when everyone says bye to you, and then they say bye again, cause they wanna delay you leaving and stuff. the moment that requires most determination and courage is to pull yourself from that final goodbye from whoever and walk past that silly policeman thru the departure gates. haha ever since the 12th of February, i have left singapore 3 times in total. not once have i looked back at my family or friends after i past the departure gates. not once at all. cause if you look back, you'll just wanna turn and walk back, to the one place you had all the comforts and security in the world. i can smile back upon such memories cos going overseas has made me grown, and i no longer fear going back home and having to leave again. cos its all part of the whole cycle, and its something ive grown accustomed to, and have come to accept. but i knoe esther will be just finee. : )
 
haha oh if youre wondering? im still happy. haha eric said that was random but no eric, theres a reason behind it. i'll tell you online or something lar. haha brilliant!
 
gabriel out!
 
"ive pushed to get through, the crowds of twisted souls
just to find i'm right back here
doing what i'm told, so take my hands
dont let me surrender
cause maybe someday in time
things will go my way
things will go my way
things will go my way"
-/thecalling
 



you spend all your life trying to find the love of your life
and when u find her what do you do...
DONT TALK AT ALL!!!
 
GABRIEL is down and OUT! :)

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

 im damn happy la. i cant say why, i cant say how. but im just damn happy la. i cant stop smiling. i cant stop laughing. i cant stop giggling. i cant stop blushing. i am SO happy.
 
"when hopes and dreams seem far away,
patience will lead you closer each day"
 
thanks rowena, it did..... :)
 
gabriel out! ( i am so damn happy)

Monday, July 19, 2004

ereht saw a emit nehw reh daddnarg dessap yawa, dna ehs saw gnileef ytterp nwod. i rebmemer ti saw gniniar eht elohw yad. i saw gnisms reh dan ehs saw gniyas woh ereht erew ytterp srewolf. i deksa reh fi ehs saw dloc dna ehs dias ehs saw. i rebmemer tsuj gnieb ereht rof reh nehw ehs saw yllaer das. gniees reh das edam em lla eht erom reddas. taht doirep fo emit saw eht tseb i reve dah esuac i dah syawla detnaw ot eb eht eno ohw saw yb reh edis revenehw sgniht tnerew gniog llew rof reh. taht yrev yad i dah thguob sdetsub dnoces dc. won revenehw i netsil ot taht dc, ti sgnirb kcab dnof seiromem. dna hguoht lli reven teg ot od taht rof reh niaga, sti yako. esuac taht eno yromem lliw eb hguone ot tsal a emitefil.
 
leirbag tuo!! (:

Sunday, July 18, 2004

i hate the people in melbourne, seriously. most of  them were cocks larr, and they come here and attempt to 'start anew'. i mean its quite sickening. if theres one thing im glad i learnt, its to be yourself. if people like you then its good. if people dont like you for who you are, then they could just fly a kite. seriously, most of the people or 'friends' i have could seriously fuck off. i cant believe i just said that on my blog but yeah. of cos they are some people i know i could trust with my deepest secrets. robin definitely, who stays one floor above me. and a few others lar, i shant go into detail mentioning their names. and of cos, the girls, adel and ame. yeah but the rest could seriously f*** off. i wish i could put them all in a bag and throw them into the yarra river or something. if only azad was here. i could tell him ALL my troubles. if only owen was here, i could drink and drown my sorrows with my buddy boy. if only adam was here, he would just make me laugh till i forget everything. if only eric was here, things would just be like they were before. if only my 4 best friends were here with me.
 
and i was overcome by disappointment just now, cause of how much my parents love me. i mean time to time i hate them to the core, but i told them my results, which were bloody bad, and they were so comforting about it. i mean i was sad about it already, but instead of making me feel worse about it, they said it was alright, and just to work harder and see what i can do to score better.
seriously, I LOVE MY PARENTS!!!!!
 
change brings alot of different reactions from people. of cos everyone loves familiarity and things they are accustomed to, but change brings out a new side of you. it either invokes a positive or negative reaction from you, either way it does make you stronger i think. i never wanted change as i said before, so it kinda got off to a bad start, cos i was reluctant to leave to come here. and all the shit that i went thru, i blamed it on others. but i kinda feel now i put myself thru that shit. and due to that, the change kinda brought about a negative reaction. the heck-care attitude my life here, the sullen-ness and moodiness, and most damaging of all, the cigarettes.
yeah the change brought about a bad result, but now, 5 months on since i left for the very first time, i dare say i have experienced a better side of me. i smile more, hell thats for sure. and i still do get sad and stuff, due to various reasons, but i dont let those things ruin my life. i smile and say, i'll try again tomorrow. and i usre as hell learnt to appreciate the stuff i have. the things we take for granted back home. a mother's love. a father's guidance. a brother's company. a grandparent's experience. things we wont have, if there's ever a time we have to leave home. but they'll always be there, as long as you keep them where they belong...... in the heart :)
 
i miss home, i miss familiarity, i miss my friends, i miss the food, i miss my dogs, i miss HER, but most of all, i miss my family.
 
gabriel out!
 
cos i mean im caught living in a world filled with love
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above
i can brush  my troubles away
know that deep down inside
i've got sunshine in my life
 
worldfilledwithlove-craigdavid

Thursday, July 15, 2004

last nite was one of the best nites i've ever had in melbourne. amelia and adelene cooked chicken rice for dinner and ating and i went over to eat la. then it was quite fun cause the girls couldnt cut the chicken so i cut it and once we cut the chicken, we didnt knoe what to do with it. so ating and i decided to throw the chicken out of the balcony and ating filmed me as i threw it and it landed on the road. haha yeah and then ating served the tom yum soup but cause there were only 3 bowls, ating drank from the pot itself. yeah but it was a bloody good dinner so thanks girls!
then after that we just chilled around, 5 fags and 4 mugs of coffee summed up my activity. we were just at the balcony, when we decided to busk so i jumped over to the parapet and started playing the guitar and singing, with the rest of them joining in as well. it was fun la, although some people looked disinterested, others were really nice and one couple gave us two thumbs up cause when they walked past on the other side of the road, we sang 'cant help falling in love'. haha yeah bloody brilliant night.

gabriel out! :)

"there's a light in your eyes that i used to see
there's a place in your heart where i used to be
am i wrong to assume thazt you're waiting for me
there's a light in your eyes
will you leave that light burning for me"

"there's a light in your eyes that i used to see
and a song in the words that you spoke to me
am i wrong to believe in your melody
there's a light in your eyes
will you leave that light burning for me"

"there's a light in my eyes that's too bright to see
and a pain in my heart where you used to be
am i wrong to assume that you are waiting there for me
there's a light in your eyes
will you keep that light burning for me"

'lightinyoureyes'/blessidunionofsouls(but it kinda suited me only in the present tense)

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

sometimes no matter how hard you try, it can never be good enough.at thats when you just walk away. like my studies, no matter how hard i study, i can never seem to get good grades. if would be a different story if i did not study. but the fact that i did and still got shitty results just goes to show that maybe im just not good enough.
and besides that, there are many other things that sometimes are just out of reach. and when you've failed time and time again, its time to put your head up, walk away, and tell yourself, maybe you just werent good enough.

gabriel out!

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

haha oops i forgot to say my trademark line...

gabriel out!


rowena did the sweetest thing anyone has done for me for a long time today. rowena's really like a lil sis to me, despite her being older than me, and shes kinda the most genuine girl i've ever known. yeah she kinda gave me a saying and it really helped lots lots lots.
and from that saying, everything stemmed out and just further emphasized the point. from hearing jason mraz's 'you and i both' where a line went "things are gonna happen eventually" and 'the remedy' where he sang 'when i fall in love, i take my time, theres no need to hurry when im making up my mind'. and then realising that there's more to life than finding love(at my age anyway).
like my friends who really matter alot to me. and my family. i talked to my parents and my grandmother on the phone just now and it was soooo nice. i love them lots really, even though they annoy me all the time. yeah and im just gonna disappoint them so much with my results... sigh..
but yeah even if its my time to fall in love, how the hell would i know whos the right one? trial and error? haha i think not! yeah but anyway i had a double dose today heh. outside union house and outside fsc. in case you're wondering, i'm not talking about a double dose of any drug!!! but i sure felt like i was flying :) it was more than i could ask for and im sure another dose who have been an overdose and resulted in my death. ok im becoming incredibly lame here so i shall stop.
but yeah i mean how do you tell someone you love them when you dont even remotely know them? it'll make you sound really shallow and seem like you only like them cause they're good looking or something. but how if it really feels right? i mean my gut feeling has really proved me right countless times. you have no evidence or support, except for a feeling deep in your heart. telling you its right. when the whole world says its not, and you know its right. how do you tell that one person who matters the most.

heck why do i even care...

"love is only a feeling"


i dont care how lame and corny people think darius is. i think he has a freaking good voice and i mostly listened to his music in the middle of last year so lots of memories flood back. here are just a few of my favourite lines.

'feeling fine, sublime
when that smile of yours creeps into my mind
nobody told me it'll feel so good
nobody said you'll be so beautiful
nobody warned me about your smile
you're the lighy, you're the light
when i close my eyes
im colourblind'

-colourblind

you see if you knew her, she doesnt know
but its time i told her so
when i see your blushes
from a compliment of me it touches
something inside im getting rushes
me adrenaline rushes
and I’m fascinated
That you really don’t know how to take it
When I look at you that way you feel naked
And I’m so into you
I’m getting rushes

-rushes

you are incredible
you are amazing
you blow my mind
one of a kind
im having a meltdown
you are incredible
you are amazing
but sometimes
telling the truth
is easier said than done
dont leave baby
thats what i mean to say

-incredible

yeah thats really what i kinda meant to say

Monday, July 12, 2004

lee ren is the loudest snorer in the world. and he also talks and punches in his sleep. and the best thing? he gargles his mouth when he snores(i can hear the movement of saliva la). if only i had a camera phone to record all this down. damn...im not gonna get any sleep tonite.
and im thankful i have a blog cos i just went thru some of my archives and they remind me of memories which i would have otherwise forgot if i didnt write that down. so yeah...
and lee ren just farted..
hahaha

Sunday, July 11, 2004

wonderful... i have succeeded in locking myself out of my room AGAIN! how crap is that really. this has to be like the 5th time. and mr spare key wei an is still having fun in singapore which means i have no means of opening my door!! thakfully, the gracious lee ren has opened his cosy apartment to me so i get somewhere to spend the night at. and the bastard house master of mine 'requires' a payment of $50 if i call him to open my door during 'after hours' which is after 4pm every weekday and the whole of the weekends. so no way im going to pay that amount of money for him to bring his lazy ass down to open my door. so i'll just wait for tomorrow when its his 'working hours' so he cant charge me.
but that lazy bastard only comes to work after 10am and my first class is at 9pm so i got to borrow leeren's maths notes and a pen to go for tutorial. this is seriously retarded and im so pissed i can hardly bring myself to blog.
and my lips are so dry they cracked and its damn pain. urgh nothing is going right. ok gonna sleep now cause its 1am already. doubt i can sleep on leeren's sofa bed anyway but i'll try. gabriel out!

*now that i think about it, i didnt lose interest in her. i just got distracted when i went back to singapore. and i still am. ;)

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Theres a piece of you that's here with me
Its everywhere I go
It's everything I see
When I sleep
I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now
Things would get better
We would leave this town
And run forever
I know some where, some how
We'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea

oceanavenue-yellow card

i think you know who you are :)

Thursday, July 08, 2004

so 11 days have flown by without a shadow of realization and once again, i find myself with the gloomy prospect of going back to melbourne. i really enjoyed myself for this hols, but part of me wants more, seeing how much fun i had.
kudos to all my friends who went out of their way to ensure i enjoyed myself. like boey who drank beer with me at 11am in the morning at holland v. haha that was really awesome. stupid boey doesnt go online or anything so i hardly get to talk to him when im overseas which sucks cause boey is one of my best mates and he listens to my every wimp and woe.
haha and then there's playing pool with marcwong, eric and adam who are all better than me now. damn. stupid melbourne minature pool tables are ruining my game.
sigh i find this time the most difficult to leave, cause this time there is something for me to stay, in a way. i wish this was all a dream, that when i pinch myself or someone slaps me, i wake up and its july 2003. if only that could happen. i would study 100 times harder and put in a 1000 times more effort, ended up in acjc and never have left singapore in the first place. please let this be a dream.
i kinda realised leaving singapore has changed the friendships i once had. sure you knoe, when the people see you online, they say stuff like "oh i cant wait for you to come back!". but close to none of them dont realli give a damn. even people who were once close to you couldnt be bothered. and before they know it, you're leaving and they've hardly spent time with you and they'll be like "shit man thats so fast mann im gonna miss you!" and its all bullshit really. i mean it takes two hands to clap and if they're not gonna make an effort to sustain a relationship, i sure as hell aint gonna go out of my way. its all very superficial really. im glad to say though that there are some people who actually care and make an effort to spend as much time as possible with me when im back, and not give lame excuses. people like boey and marcwong who i dont even talk to online when i'm in melbourne, but they hang out with me so much when im back in town. this are the people that really care, not those who 'buddy buddy' you online. yes im being critical and yes there are specific people this criticism is being directed too. well i can be disappointed in you too so if you think im referring to you, you are probably rite. please wake up and come to your senses. you are doing shit for this friendship and you're about to lose it.
anyways,the band sounded pretty alrite todae. we played 'boys and girls' by good charlotte and it sounded fineeeeeeee. haha yeah and the normal songs were to our regular standard la but nothing spectacular.
eric asked me to blog more which is why i had to write something today. and he asked me to get a tagboard. well rickyboy, i aint no computer whiz, in fact, im damn IT-unsavvy so if you can, ill give you my blogger password and can you help me put a tagboard? my password is "ericisacomputergeniusandowenisacheekyboy".
i had no reason to stay in singapore in february cause it turn out right. i had no reason to stay in singapore in april cause it didnt turn out right. well, things might actually turn out right this time. if only, i had more time. if only.

gabriel out! :)

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

feeling kinda emotional lately, i dont knoe why. since ive got home, lots of things have taken place. i've seen people i wanted to see. i've seen people i didnt wanna see. and i've also seen people i pretended i didnt wanna see. but i wanted to badly. the first one wasnt that bad, i mean it was just a normal meeting and it didnt hurt too badly. but to see the second one in the same day was heartwrenching to say the least, it was sheer torture. but i could see she was happy, and i was happy that she was happy. its something that'll take me awhile to forget but i'm content shes happy.
and then of course more stuff happened, with me thinking i might have found someone new back here, but things not really turning out the way i hoped they might. it's just difficult, with me studying overseas and all, its kinda tough la. but this was one i wanted quite badly.
went down to barker with adam and azad to collect our O level certificates today. was awesome, i didnt think i'd miss the place so much. i mean the place is filled with so many many many beautiful memories. i mean academically-wise, barker may be quite a bad school, but in terms of upbringing, i dont think the school has put a foot wrong. the heritage and what not of the school is just something i miss so much. monday morning chapels, recess with lennard, nigel, wayne and ryanho, going out after school with the brothers eric, genxian and adam, and basically goofing around in class. haha i've said it before but i would gladly give up an arm and a leg to relive my secondary school years. i kinda wish my whole secondary school life had been recorded on a dvd and i could pop the disc into a player and watch every moment. there are some bloody beautiful memories from the last 4 years. the barker tennis court where i first properly played tennis, the sports hall where i played so many memorable inter-class soccer games against 4a1 with my strike partner lennard, the geog learning centre where lennard, me, wayne and bernard were made to stand at all four corners of the room for talking. the tennis court was also the place where 4a3 won the inter-class soccer tournament, captained by yours truly. haha it was quite a slack tournament. our quarter final match was against either 4b2 or 4b3. i took a kick in from our own half, lennard miscued his shot, and justyn finished to win the game for us 1-0. the semi final was against 5e1 and it went to backheel penalties. i scored mine and the 5e1 striker missed his so we were thru to the final. the final was against 4e2, who were arguably the best team. and once again to penalties and once again i scored the first one while the other team player missed his so we won, albeit weird circumstances. haha yeah all this happened last year but these are just little memories that take up such a huge place in my heart. i can see why they say friends are more important than your partners cause all these memories were done with my friends and they are the ones that have been there always.
going for tennis training in sec3 with nigey all the way at kallang and after that, meeting the cricket people(jonlee, jon cho and justin lee) and eating kfc or macs. hahah running out of chinese class to play soccer with whichever class was having pe. and most of all, 'going to the toilet' during mr chia's chinese lessons and returning with either a bag of chicken wings or mee goreng. haha and the silly things we used to do like nigel and i competing in paper basket ball. and telling all my affairs of the heart to cj at the back of kathryn koh's class last year. haha the list goes on and i'm afraid you might be bored to death unless you were a part of these memories, and if you were, you'll probably be smiling to yourself too.
enjoy all the moments you have, cause you'll always look back and reminisce, wishing for just another moment.


i will be there, always waiting
waiting for you, to let me inside
where your fire burns, in a city of angels
just like a river rushing straight into the sea
i'm the one thing meant for you and you for me

whatever you want
whatever you need
whatever it takes, i'll do anything

"anything"-thecalling

Sunday, July 04, 2004

this post shall be very segregated(a new word i picked up from nigey)

1.i resolve to stop smoking forever

2.i miss my brother cause i wont see him for another 10 weeks

3.sometimes unexpected things happen that make you just wanna smile :)

4.affairs of the heart complicate things

5.affairs of the heard complicate things ALOT

ok im done see ya

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