Friday, December 26, 2008
MERRY CHRISTMAS one and all!
into the wee hours of boxing day, i sincerely hope everyone enjoyed christmas. whether it be because you had a truckloads of fun, or a meaningful time catching up with family, or just enjoying a day off from the drudgery of work and routine.
sadly, i think for me, it was mostly the last one that i enjoyed the most. a day off from camp right now sits high in my list of desires/rewards. like i said before, the festive season this year hasn't really kicked in for me. nonetheless, i did appreciate the gatherings.
christmas lunch today for mum's side was low-key as many people didn't turn up. it was ok though, less people means more food and more conversation. i spent most of the afternoon swatting flies, dispensing drinks and chatting with eleanor. i don't normally talk to many people on mum's side but i guess since dan wasn't around this time, i had to make an effort ha.
dinner was at ak jean's house altho it was more family friends. but it was fun anyway, and food was good as well. had fun occupying uncle kk's son, he's a real cute kid. good to see all the younger ones also, altho seeing how they are all more or less well into the teenage phase of excitement and angst makes me wonder how old i actually am.
and even though i always said i wouldnt club on a holiday, i actually did head down till zouk last night after the clock struck 12. it was pretty fun, havent seen many of the guys in awhile but zhi's back from NY and ty was also back from holiday. also ran into the twins and michael and winebar, it was good seeing them too. also got to see my eyecandy/breath of fresh air haha. too bad she doesn't look very keen on me. i think the whole badboy image is losing it's appeal/freshness. from tomorrow onwards, i shall be ME. haha gabriel out!
lights off, pyjamas on
12:38 AM
Monday, December 22, 2008
this weekend was kinda eventful.
on friday, went to st james to meet the usual brtc instructors for iskandar's birthday. was pretty happening, by the time i reached dinie was already stoned at the corner of the smoking area lol. had a couple of hard drinks, before heading over to dragonfly with gerry to find Lta Quek. was good to see him since it's been a month since i POP-ed, treated them to a flaming each with didn't go down too well i have to admit haha.
last night hoon and yuwei stayed over. apart from the usual WinningEleven, we also went for supper at laodifang. all in all, it was fun having an semi-emo, semi-revealing sharing session haha.
this morning we went for breakfast at thomson. had some eggs and toast, before i took away nasi lemak for lunch, which i must say was pretty good. i'm going back there to eat again. caught the manu-quito match which united narrowly won, before adriel came to pick me up for coffee and smokes at casuarina. was so good seeing my melbourne best friend again after months, the chat was filled with laughter and much needed catching-up. not to mention that i know realise adebayor looks like jack sparrow when he dribbles lol.
christmas week is here. have to endure two and a half days of camp before i hopefully go on my 4.5 day break. hope i succeed haha. gonna hit the sack now. dan's already in ghana. i hope he's alright there. he will be.
gabriel out.
lights off, pyjamas on
12:27 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
if any of you see me online later tonight, kindly banish me to bed. cause tonight is the first night i'm gonna be able to get a decent sleep, and if i mess it all up by staying up online or playing games, it will be utterly stupid, not to mention disastrous.
last night was fun. as dan's second last night before he heads to ghana, we went to partyworld to sing karaoke!! gosh it's been years since i've gone ktv-ing, just give you a rough estimate how long it's been, the last time i went, people were still smoking inside the rooms. at first i was abit lethargic, but as our time started to tick down i couldn't get enough songs! haha i particularly enjoyed
hao xin fen shou with jenn,
you make me wanna with all the lads and my rockstar rendition of
topeng haha.
camp was shite today. camp is shite everyday, altho the instructors are pretty nice. it's just the whole routine that gets so tiresome and mundane. can hardly wait for the 29th when i have my next appointment with my orthopedic. OOC letter, please fall my way!!
i need to start feeling more cheerful, christmas and new year are approaching! this year i've actually been down to town more than the last few years but the christmas lights haven't had any effect on me. however, i firmly believe our mood is all down to the way we approach our lives. and starting tomorrow, i resolve to be happier and hopefully, i can embrace the holiday season and be as cheerful as i should be.
it probably should start with another trip down to orchard road ha. ok gonna grab a bite, finish up PrisonBreak and off for a much-needed 7 hour sleep. gabriel out!
lights off, pyjamas on
9:59 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
gosh i've been on such a blogging spree lately it can only be good for my grasp of the english language and the preservation of whatever creative remains there are left in my brain. it's only a waste that no one reads this anymore. but still, it's my diary ha.
camp really really sucked today. with two hours of sleep from sunday night, i barely struggled to make it through a full day of lectures plus three hours of night practical. i had to purposely sit in the front row so that i HAD to stay awake. was fun going to see the MO in the morning, even though i didn't get any OOC letter, just to waste time. even chatted with LCP Yap, doing what he does best: bringing recruits to see the MO lol.
booking out at the very 'normal' time of 2130, i rushed home to bathe and dress up for laura and shumin's joint 21st birthday bash. a big thank you to the ladies for the exclusive invite.
very soon i will write a letter. it wil be difficult but with each passing day, i find it imperative that i do it. for everyone's sake. before the actual moment takes place, i will probably etch out a draft here. until things get better, or at least make more sense, it is sometimes necessary for two people to not be in each other's lives.
we both take turns asking the questions, we'll never find the answers.
lights off, pyjamas on
12:56 AM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
the world is a sad and unfair place, and there will always be a percentage of the population that has to bear with it.
person A tries his/her best but it just isn't enough. person B just has to try and it is always enough. thereafter, circumstances determine the protagonist/antagonist.
in a requited, two-way relationship, person B is hugely disadvantaged, always meeting the partner's requirements but never being fully satisfied and happy in the relationship. in a one-way, unrequited infatuation, person A is suffering the deficit, always being content with what little 'treasures' he/she gets, but never being able to make the other one happy despite striving to the most of their capabilities.
it is easy to identify what's best for ourselves, but ever so difficult to carry it out. to pull the trigger and ignite the series of events that have potential life-altering influences. but each and everyone of us has a limit, and when we reach that maximum, we resist.
i seem to have limit(s). ever so often, i tell myself to do it. IT being to do what's best for myself and have the heart to carry it out. my determination ain't half bad, i normally last for awhile. figuratively, let's imagine i'm trying to quit "smoking". i often last a couple of months, without even touching a stick. the temptation is there, but i persist. but in that one moment of weakness, all the hard work is flushed down the drain. the moment you take that brief first puff again, you're back at square one. that precisely depicts my predicament.
i think it's time for more drastic measures. deleting all the old smses would be a good start. but those are rather easy, it's the more material paraphernalia that is hard to dispose of. photographs of a bygone era where things were sweeter are pretty hard to get rid off. homemade presents probably leave the most bitter taste. then of course there's also the secret blog which no one knows about, that i kept even when i was with the ex.
it's like trying to cover up for a crime, there are so many loose ends to tie up and you don't know where to start. and like many criminals, you leave out one minor detail. and you think you're safe. but then when you least expect, the past, just like the law, comes back to get you. one tiny slip-up and you're sucked back into the same routine as before. eagerly anticipating messages that will never come, getting your hopes up for scenarios that will never happen.
being person A; satisfied by basically nothing.
there's so much to be done. and i don't know where to start.
bellesrevenge.livejournal.com
lights off, pyjamas on
2:20 AM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
this is really really REALLY really REALLY not good. it is 2AM now, and i have to wake up at six to go to camp. however, manu is playing aalborg at 0345 which i have decided to catch. thus, as it stands, the maximum amount of sleep i can possibly get is two hours. and that is if i end post now. which i won't. furthermore, night lessons tomorrow which officially end at 9PM (which means add at least half an hour before i step past the camp gates). gonna need all the coffee i can possibly get in the morning. because STUPID medic course instructors/encik disallow the purchasing of drinks from the canteen.
today was the last day of my MC. it was fun while it lasted, but i've been beginning to get really bored these last few days. not that i'd rather be poking needles into myself, but am just patiently awaiting and hoping for OOC. even though that would probably mean clerkwork everyday from 8-5, at least it would be embarking on the fixed timetable for the rest of my NS-time. and that would mean i can start counting down.
be-earlied christmas party on friday. cause dan's gonna be in ghana over the festive season. not bad really, hopefully it'll get me into the mood for christmas because it's so hard to be caught up in the holidays when you're not actually having any! really needa spend christmas overseas one of these days, wrapped up in a thick coat, with the christmas lights accompanying the light snow falling on the city streets. think NYC.
so i just have to bear with thursday and friday, whilst optimistically looking out for any OOC letter floating around ha. and then, nice yummy dinner on friday which ushers in the weekend once again. i can hardly wait.
gabriel out!
lights off, pyjamas on
1:57 AM
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
LONG WEEKEND IS OVER!! :(
thankfully, i still have two more days of mc which after tonight, sadly becomes one. however, the last four days have been pretty alright.
on friday, mum brought me to the podiatrist who happened to be a nice aussie lady who supported collingwood! so she was extra nice to me and i got my insoles which means i'll be running more (YES NO???). in the evening, eric and i got our asses thoroughly beaten by mrs tan in tennis, although thankfully, dinner was a more tightly-contested affair with madame narrowly beating us to paying the bill. but dinner at blooie's was pretty good, and company with amos, joe and the girlfriend was good. except joe dropped 'his' lighter in front of madam haha.
i cant remember what i did on saturday apart from watching soccer the whole night. ah yes, had lunch at the nearby market with dan and nala. poor nala, recounting the dreadful events that happened the previous night, while dan and i were laughing away. kind friends, we definitely are not.
sunday was squash day with dan, yuwei and huiwen. in the upset of the decade, i beat the former AJC captain in straight sets: 9-4, 9-6, 9-4. this monumental feat requires no humility whatsoever. after that, we went to j8 to catch
Body Of Lies which wasn't bad but i felt got a little confusing. but it wasn't a bad show so one thumbs up i guess. nala joined us for dinner at Din Tai Fung after, and what's a trip to j8 without Yammi Yoghurt heh.
yesterday was fun. think i rested (think: LAZED) all day till dinner time which was with the family. after that, randomly asked azad out for supper which eventuated into watching a movie with claire and jaz. we watched
Four Christmases which i quite enjoyed. although i still do prefer vince vaughn with the rest of the FratPack, he was nonetheless still quite funny and the movie was overall decent.
today, being still on MC, was spent mainly resting (again: LAZING). in awhile, i am going to follow dan to the airport to welcome back JENAN or WENNIFER (you know how celeb couples are nowadays). if we're lucky, we might sneak some prata in on the way. so i better get ready.
i hope you as great a long weekend as i did. gabriel out!
lights off, pyjamas on
9:25 PM
Friday, December 05, 2008
so it has been 11 days since i got posted to the 109th Medical Orderly Course to commence my training for becoming a civil defence medic. however, i have only been present for three days. was on mc the whole of the first week, and today i was not feeling too well again so i went to TTSH and the doctor gave me another week's worth of mc.
to be fair, the course is far from boring and they teach many lessons that can be very applicable in life. however, i just cannot bear the thought of being treated like a recruit for another 8 weeks (even though in rank we are now privates), as well as having to forsake my hard-earned 4 days of leave for 2008. therefore, i can't say i will be complaining if i out-of-course.
eric's back from sydney, which has made me very happy recently. some of the things we have done include having dinner at a pretty good jap restaurant at dempsey with madam and shumin, as well as mamboing last night.
speaking of which, i have now gone clubbing twice with my old BRTC instructors, and i must say they are quite a fun bunch. it also helps because i'm at a juncture in life where social interaction is extremely limited and therefore, to have a group of friends gained from NS who i can go out with whenever the needs arises and have a good time is rather invaluable.
december has arrived and can you believe it, it's the end of the year again. 2008 is slowly creeping to a close and will soon be but a chapter of the past. it definitely serves as a reminder that time is catching up with all of us, and as i mentioned earlier to eric, we have to make the most of our time now.
i just feel that we have to make our lives worth living, and that when looked back upon, we can say that it was good while it lasted. gabriel out.
lights off, pyjamas on
2:19 AM
