Sunday, April 25, 2004
quote of friday by oshiro kunimasa
me:kuni what year were you born?
kuni:ohh fried eggplant!!
edwin and me:~blank stares~
haha kuni thought we asked him what he had ordered. haha well been pretty busy lately with school work and settling down back to melbourne life again. no more holidays and i have to get back to work again. got my tests back and they were satisfactory but i expected better. 3.75/5 for literature, 31/50 for maths and 39/50 for chem. well lit and chem both equalled out to more 75% and 78% and in singapore that would be brilliant marks but not here cause here, to get to,say, medicine which is the most difficult course, you need an average of 96% for four subjects. and as you can see, im pretty far off eh?
so poor eric and ryanho i think both of them will probably be back in australia by the time they read this? so ericpal and ryanhofats, welcome back to boring monotonous aussieland. well, within a blink of an eye, one week has passed since ive got back here, and it flew by pretty fast i must say. havent talked to much of my friends in spore since ive reached here so ok i shall drop messages here.
of cos firstly, azad:hello, havent seen u online lately yesyes? just to let you knoe im doing fine, and i threw away my new adidas ball cause i prefer the feel of the old mikasa one.
adam:teeheeheex, when will you ever be serious?haha score score score!
nigey:hows your class(mates)? :)
owenbuddy:hows work?haha nvm at least the pay is good, and i hope you're smiling more
edwardgoh(teetoose):haha okok i will bring back photos of the waitress and the gelato girl!
quek-kia:haha u always seem to be stressed yar..dont fret ok...
shuchua:eh if you even read this, you owe me a bloody date
everyone else:hey miss you lots and lots and lots and lots
haha ok hmmm i would also like to that theres this place on lygon street(where all the italians live and where every restaurant is an italian eatery)which is owned by a singaporean indian and guess what he sells? ROTI PRATA! haha and guess what? im going to bring wei an to eat there now!! yum yum okok prata is somehow connected to michgoh in my brain so hi michie! haha irrelevant but yesyes thats my state of mind now. spouting nonsense. alrite the prata's getting cold. see ya guys...
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4:15 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
i talked to karen last nite online and it was pretty great la. it felt like before, back to normal again. calling her names, and she pretending to be smart. haha yeah memories la. anyway, thanks karen, appreciate it :)
anyway im lazy to blog but this song should tell you how im feeling now. good stuff and oh yeah, im feeling rather nostalgic happy reminiscent. haha yeah at least im happy. enjoy the lyrics...
I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are the words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know im home
They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
The call in times gone by
The crying in the rain
You know ive wasted half the time
And i'm on my knees again
till you come to me
yeah
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are the words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know im home
I know im home
I know im home
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when im lying in your arms
i know im home
nevergonnaleaveyourside-danielbedingfield
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9:38 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
quote of yesterday by tan lee ren(after i kicked a can with my left foot high into the sky)
"woah!johnny walker eh!!"
hmmmmm....im afraid that would be jonny wilkinson mr lee ren... nonetheless it was rather amusing.
yeah hmm so 3 days back in melbourne and what can i say, im already counting the days till i'll come home again. seriously, i cant wait to see every single one of you, even the ones im not even close with, but i do see you around, do knoe pple like you are also missed.
well, i guess i'll recap my brief 2 week stint back in singapore.
i arrived on a saturday night and was greeted back home by many many people including azad who sneaked out of his house to see me, and still bluffed me by saying he wasnt there! haha after that we all went newton cept for azad who had to sneak back home and there i met the fredster, and coincidentally ran into joshua and shunhong too. yeah then leon and the sec4s were also there so it was quite a massive gathering. haha yeah so i had murtabak and fredster ordered sambal stingray and i only ate a piece! one piece! aargh i want it now! then that very night i asked owen over to my place and since the party he was at was boring he decided to come over, and rachel followed him cos she had nothing to do too. haha that was damn good la, talking to owen after not seeing him for soooooooo long! great to catch up with him man.
on sunday, i went for church and then went to town with wenhao where i then met azad and adam. we played pool for awhile before adam met his classmates(heh heh)and then we went to my house to jam. and that jamming session was DAMN good! yeah i talked about it before so i wont say much la.
that monday i crashed ac after school and then stupid azad had something to stay back for so i went to meet mr adam first and then we all went holland v swensens to eat dinner haha and it costs a bomb cos xueying, joan and gang joined us and everyone was hungry and all
then the next day, i met azad and adams again and we went to our favourite hangout. where else but SAKAE SUSHI! haha yeah havent ate the for ages and the buffet ahhhhh so good! fried tofu and chawanmushi and blah blah. and i do have a fond memory of sakae sushi so there...
yup yup what else happened that week ah? hmm not much la but oh my bro came out of army on thursday nite so it was so good to see him cos he means lots to me but then bloody ocs took him back in on friday nite. screw them man...
i had my party on saturday and lots of pple turned up late cos of church and some didnt even turn up! haha but besides that it was pretty fun. mahjong people busy ponging away, jammers busy jamming away, drunkards ie marc lim, owen and me busy drinking away. haha and buayas ie adam and eric busy sneaking away. haha ok i was kidding... just joking bros...
yeah the second week just flew by la, i can only remember recording our second album on wednesday and then playing soccer in ac on thursday and then friday was my last day there la. went out with the guys but azad had to leave after awhile cos it was pretty late already and eric was having dinner with mrs tan so he could only come later. so then we went to play pool but marc lim called and asked us to go over so in the end,the four of us,dams,eric,marcwong and me took a cab down to kevin mahs place which was almost impossible to find! haha yeah so then we had quite alot of fun there and owen came too la so it was fun and we all played drinking googles! haha marc lim had a hard time trying to teach owen how to play but in the end it was all very fun. then after that, dams,marcwong,eric and owen all came over to my place to just spend time together la. haha pretty fun i must say but before i knew it, it was morning, and i would be leaving that nite...haha sad..
so on saturday morning i went out with my aunt and my 7 year old cousin to kap for macs breakfast. haha shes damn cute la my cousin, she went to order hotcakes cos i ordered hotcakes even though she never tried it before! and she even copied me and had orange juice! haha shes reallie cute and shes from rgps, which she affectionately calls 'rubbish girls primary school'. haha so yeah thats my holiday for you!
its a common cliche but i really feel strongly towards it:
you dont cherish something till its gone
yeah pretty much sums up how i feel... you knoe wad i mean la.i dont see a need to elaborate. the day i stop caring is the day she'll realise.
"happy endings, just what did you do if you're a dream then come true
stop pretending, that what you mean isnt what you say"-happyendings/theallamericanrejects
lights off, pyjamas on
9:04 PM
Monday, April 19, 2004
my futures here in melbourne but my hearts all the way back home
just thought i'd let u knoe
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12:03 AM
Sunday, April 18, 2004
haha im back here in my cosy albeit lonely melbourne room. dying for just a few more days in singapore but obviously i cant have them. a few more days, to jam with adam and azad, to eat roti prata and bak chor mee, and just to see the special people that mean alot to me.
haha anyway tiffy, its alrite you can bring me the next time la. you better be free cos i wont accept anymore of your excuses.haha.
yeah so school starts tomorrow and im rather prepared la, nothing much to be worried about cos i dont think i had any homework. well 'think' is the operative word here. actually im sure i do have homework but i hope i get away with telling my teachers singapore is a third world country with no such thing as internet. hmmm i wonder if they'll believe...
so anyway i wanted to say i really love life, and going through life puts you through so many emotions and experiences and it goes a long way to building your personality. haha and for someone like me who loves writing crappy songs, alot of my experiences are derived from my life itself so from my songs, you probably can know my life story la.
after rouge last friday, i started writing 'my first dance'. and im also writing 2 other songs, 'girl out of my league' and 'always waiting' haha for 2 girls la. you get a free cd of my band if u can guess which girls they are.
anyway my internet is being a real cock now so im going off.take care all u singapore ppl.
lights off, pyjamas on
10:18 PM
Saturday, April 17, 2004
everyones like always blogging about how people seem to be erm for example hypocritical or juvenile and stuff la. like and then they go talking about how the world is and thats pretty cool really. i respect that and they do make sense. but i dont knoe man. finding fault with others is one thing,but finding fault with yourself is another. people tend to pinpoint our their weaknesses but they should start from themselves and look whats wrong with them, and maybe by improving themselves, they can actually accomodate more of the world. and so in such fashion, i shall do this todae. even though its so damn personal, i shall jack myself for everyone to read. i am gonna scrutinise my every bad point, cos i knoe that theres bad in me.
im petty,damn right i am. i dont knoe its not the big things that im petty about, but the minor things that irritate me. i guess its cause i feel the little things you do go a long way in showing your true character. and thats something that has to change. i have to be more open to people breaking their promises. i mean its not like ive never broken a promise. i have to learn to forgive and to forget. i must not only give people chances, but give myself a chance in improving my character, by saying 'thats alrite man i can see why it happened'. it goes a long way in moulding me into a better person.
next, im pretty hot headed. on the soccer field, i tell you im the first to pick a fight. i guess its cos ive always stood up for my frens. but a line has to be drawn. i cant go around shoving everyone who pisses my friends off can i? yeah there are times when i should just close my eyes, count to 10, and walk away. that will ensure more peaceful surroundings for sure.
haha girls:my weakpoint. i shouldnt be so darn serious in trying to get a girlfren. im only 16 for goodness sake, im a good 10 years away from when i wanna get married. 10 years is probably a long enough time to find someone and fall in love with her, actually pluck up the courage to propose to her and then wedding bells ring. and that certainly is a long way more. right now i should take things as they come. if they bend towards my favour,good. and if they dont, why bother? its not like im gonna marry the first girl i meet yeah? so yup i should stop being so hard up on finding 'the one' when maybe im not even meant to be finding her now. so gab, stop like being overly friendly and take ur time. :)
i just wanna say the biggest thank you to eric. he was the only one who cared enough to make me realise all this. he was the only one who had the courage, as well as the heart to make me realise all my bad points. to the rest of u who realised it but didnt say it,well too bad then i guess. i knoe who my true friends are la.
hmmm okok gonna leave a few messages here...
owen:work hard,study hard(when poly starts),dont be overly stressed over girls cos at the end of the day, you do knoe wad an amazing guy u are.
adam:haha dont be shy show off ur body! and anyway i knoe its hard when everything has an impression of you which isnt too flattering but i guess you should just prove all those people wrong by showing who you realli are yeap?
azad:thanks for everything la, i cant put into words, just do knoe that im eternally grateful for every single little thing you've done for me.
marcwong:hello there, study hard cos Os arent that difficult but they still arent to be taken lightly. so look at them seriously and it realli shouldnt be a problem for u.
titus:wth i dont knoe wad to say to u haha. just remember my band's name,the Edwards!!! remember, we named it after a fool alrite!
boey:i love your class(mates) haha catch up with you pretty soon yup
quek:wahh the ac soccer team needs you la! can you please like join soccer! anyway we must go to the playground one day and have a long conversation. theres so much more we should be sharing with one another seeing how darn similar we are.
ryanho:dude, smile more and worry less.'people make mistakes' and remember boeys fav phrase 'oh please'.enjoy your hols here la cos when you go back to perth its gonna be all shit again rite?
wayne:nothing to say to you except that i hope your soccer is better?joking la take good care of urself, i enjoyed every minute of our sec4 life in the same class la.
genxian:damn didnt get to see you this time around but do knoe i still regard you as one of my best frens alrite? please i knoe youre damn cool in jjc but if i was there you'd be a small fry so please dont get too ego.
keith:heyy all's well i hope? all the best
and lastly, eric: :) what do you want me to say? thank you isnt enough, i love you isnt nearly enough. what do you say to someone who has so much shit comments to say that i dont even listen to you half the time and then comes up with something so meaningful and heartening that i should let you knoe eric, youre the only one, who i listen to every word that you say to me. i love your bluntness eric, cos to me, you are so damn honest, and thats the only thing i could ask for from someone who is so important in my life la. when youre lonely at sydney, remember that one wild night at rouge, and remember all the guys who spent the night together. and remember, girls arent everything. i should knoe, cos u taught me that. cheers bro
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6:21 AM
soon i'll be gone,soon you wont see me
i knoe ive tried my best to be
someone who could give you what you want
lots of love and not just fun
if thats not enough i guess thats fine
in that case nothing else could make u mine
i'll walk away from here with a broken heart
its my fault the door was slammed right shut
take my time to get over you
but do knoe i cant just find someone new
somethings are meant to be let go of
somethings really just cant be forced
if its meant to be you'll be mine someday
if its not it wont happen anyway
i'll smile to myself cos i knoe that you're glad
it doesnt matter to me at all that im sad
hopefully one fine day i'll look you and smile
tell you it really has been awhile
you're still as pretty, in fact more so
some things you really ought to know
but they'll be kept at a private place
some place where they wont be under your gaze
i'll look you in the eye and lie this three words
'im over you', God knoes it hurts
to watch you leave when im not ready for it
but i wont regret the thing i just did
to see you walk away, a happy girl
only thing i could ask for,from the whole world
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6:08 AM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
wellwell waiting for my band(wel ok azad and adam) to come over now for a jamming session and im pretty looking forward to it heeheehee:)
hopefully can come for practice but hes in a little trouble with his daddy so hopefully all goes well. my hands are seriously itching to jam, and people who have heard azad,adam and me play before would probably say we arent too bad, but ever since ive got back, its almost as if the wait to jam again has sparked off a remarkable chemistry in the band. on sunday, we jammed for the first time in 8 weeks and well, it sounded amazing. azad was spot on with all his fill ins, adam was amazingly quick in learning up new songs, and together we just sounded like a band, rather than a guitar, a bass and a drumset trying to sound nice together. we were actually playing together as one and the fact that we played this well without any directions, but just with our own feelings was pretty cool. the combination of each of our emotions conveyed through our instruments is in my opinion the most powerful way of letting people know how you feel. its also the best way of communication and getting your point across, cos for me, music speaks louder than words.
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3:59 PM
today was a great day. it just was. im not gonna say the main reason why but azad and adam should knoe why. also, what made it even better was on the mrt home, i ran into my biggest crush ever! haha yeah she came over and we talked all the way till we reached my stop and damn i didnt wanna get off the train but i would have been realli stupid to stay on the train so i got off. haha gosh she still looks amazing and she probably looks at me as a lil boy but still, haha it was so damn nice of her to talk to me. today was my first ever great day for a long while.
'hands down this is the best day i can, ever remember, i'll always remember
the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft light, the scent of your hair, as it twirled in your fingers'
-handsdown by dashboardconfessional
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12:11 AM
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
heyhey..its good to be back...
well i didnt blog the whole of last week cos i dint want to even remotely reveal when i was coming home but as it turns out EVERYONE knew so haha well what a waste.but yeah, its nice to see everyone again. well, almost everyone.
my seven weeks in melbourne seems all a dream,it pasts so fast and im back here in my house. i wonder if it actually all did happened. and then i knoe it did. and then i realised time passes so damn awfully fast. and it scares me.
four years of secondary school sounds like a long time, and it was. but my four years of secondary have now been over for a darn long time. seven weeks being in melbourne seemed an eternity, and it was. but its over and my first term has flashed by without any way of me being able to rectify anything i might regret.
time passes too fast, and heck im onli 16 now, but i constantly remind myself that i dont have all the time in the world. i may be 16 but before i knoe it, i'll be 60, and this sounds cliched and far fetched but believe, i WILL be 60 before anyone of you know it. and due to this, i guess i have to live life to its fullest.
im gonna pursue all my dreams and passions to the best im able to, cos i should do it while im young, full of energy and vigour, cos thats what young people have the most of. no experience, but full of enthusiasm. im going to just do things that make me happy, cos if i dont make myself happy, no one will. and its not like i have all the time in the world to do stuff that makes me happy.
im going to be open to all my options. like what i take in university and stuff. this is quite a short entry cos im gonna sleep now. but i just wanna say i was very happy to meet all my frens again, especially more so for lennard and nigel, my two favourite people in sec3. but i was equally glad to see the rest of you guys.well, almost all...
lastly, i wanna say...be happy :)
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1:25 AM
