Monday, May 31, 2004
hey people im halfway through my maths tutorial but i have the worst teacher on earth. i can disappear from class for 20 mins every week and when i get back just in time to get dismissed, he does not say a word. once i was walking back from the toilet and i stopped the read the newspapers at the students lounge and he walked past me to go to his office and all he did was nod at me. haha its quite pitiful i mean hes an awfully nice man but he should be stricter. figures why my maths is so horrible.
today is 31st may so HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZAD!!!!!! hope u have a fabulous birthday and im just sorry im not there to celebrate it with you, but knowing how many friends u got, im sure im not missed la! azad has been the one friend who has stood beside me for the longest of times, from sec1 and 2, until now, although we did quarrel in the middle of sec3 la. azad has never once failed any promise he made to me(well maybe a few but very minor trivial things). haha back in april, he promised to bring for me something when we were meant to eat at sakae sushi but he not only brought it, he brought something else which i liked even more! haha secret code here mr azad! yes so i cannot thank you more for the friendship you have given me all this years alrite? so thanks once again azad...
on a more serious note, i realised i changed alot ever since i went back in april. i used to be girl crazy... now i dont even want a girlfren. i had a couple of opportunities to be attached but i passed them on. it wasnt a matter of being in a relationship for the sake of being in one. its more the matter of being in a relationship only if it feels right and im ready. and sadly, it didnt feel right, and i was also not ready. i dont think i'll be ready for a looooooong time, im just still very immature and childish when it comes to such matters. and its really thanks to eric that i realised this. so im glad to have such brilliant friends.
okok time to drop a few messages...
adam:havent seen u online in ages, hope all is fine with you yeah?
min:haha awesome blog, full of nonsense, mine cant compare with yours mann
shumin:have you forgotten me??? my name is jang hyuk and im your favourite neighbour
everyone else:nothing specific i have to say but did u for a moment think i had forgotten all of u guys? not a chance..all of u are constantly in my thoughts
hahaha jian dan ai and an hao..nice songs.. jay chou is not badd
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2:51 PM
Monday, May 17, 2004
haha im at the trinity computer lab again and its 825 so its pretty cool cos it opens till late. anyway mr tan lee ren here is next to me and his cursing away with words like 'fuck la!' and 'cheebai!' cos he cant print his notes, the file wont open and he cant even right click the mouse. anyway to help relieve his tension i shall ask him to guest blog a few words.
hello hello heelllooo i am augustine chammm chamm cham capri appletini.
as u can see, lee ren doesnt blog often. and hes still cursing away. life is never straight with lee ren around. yes so its my 5th week here and work is piling up like mad. havent even had the time to call back home once in awhile to talk to azad and if u knoe how much i love talking to azad, you can tell how much work i actually have.
yesyes stress stress but life here is pretty darn nice and i wish all of u were here to share the fun and pleasure la. the weather is gorgeous, its seventeen degrees now. ok lee ren is fed up and hes going to the other comp lab to print his notes so i shall follow him now. byebye!
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6:23 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2004
hey im in the trinity computer lab now cos i left chem lecture halfway during the break. it was oh so boring and i wasnt paying attention anyway so i must as well do something useful. well checking mail and friendster isnt really useful but at least its productive. well, depending on how you see it la.
well into the end of the 4th week of term already and the work sure as hell is pilling up, for history of ideas(hoi) which is some kinda gay philosophy subject, i got a 1200 essay due on 2nd june. and the essay topic? "what motivated tiberrius gracchuis?" i mean firstly, who the hell is tiberrius gracchius?!! and secondly, he lived in caesar's time so why do i care? nonetheless, it is worth i think 20% of my final hoi marks so i better take it seriously. im doing alrite for bio, what with the circulatory and respiratory systems. its alot to mug, something im not good at doing, but at least i find it interesting, chem however is a totally different thing. i loved chem back in secondary school, but here in trinity, they seemed to have tken chem to a whole new level of boringness. besides making everything else so much more cheem, they even implemented physics stuff in, and why do u think i didnt take physics in the first place? hmmmmmm..... well maths1 is really difficult but i quite like solving problems la. makes me feel good about myself, so there.
well nows lunch and after lunch i got drama which is really fun albeit a little gay. and after that i have chemistry tutorial and then thursday will be over and the weekend will be here once again! cos i got maths1 lecture in the morning, then free period,then lunch, then bio tutorial(which i love) and then hoi lecture(which i do my bio notes in) tomorrow. so fridays past real fast. and i got clubbing to look forward to tmr nite and saturday nite as well. haha not that im a hardcore clubber now but its alrite la. i dont hate it like i used to.
haha well the ppl walking in to use the lab and standing behind me and reading this. strangers whats more so i better stop now. lunch is calling. i miss every single one of you at home, i really do. even you. and you and you. and you shaking your head thinking i'll never miss you? i miss you too. haha okok lunch lunch...
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10:16 AM
Monday, May 10, 2004
i though i was over you already but im not quite there yet. fallen abit short but i'll reach the distance soon. i thought i might find someone new, i promised not to think of you but i did. and thats just the way it happens. it aint easy looking at photos on the web and seeing you smile back in those photos. those smiles i'll never see smile at me, the cheeks i'll never get to touch, that waist i'll never get to hug. everythings thinks its easy but no one knoes how i feel. no one except for you.
i miss home, God knoes i do. i miss the warmth and cosiness of my own room and my house. i miss my parents who have taught me everything i knoe. i miss my elder brother who has been the best friend i ever had. i miss my extended family who ive come to be so familiar with. i miss my two dogs. i miss playing right wing for my soccer team. i miss hanging out after a game with my soccer team. i miss drinking with my soccer team. i miss mahjong. i miss my friends. i miss talking to azad and adam. i miss drowning my sorrows with owen. i miss walking shumin to my house and back. i miss my church. i miss barker. i miss chapel every monday. i really miss chapel every monday. i miss playing in the worship band on chapel every monday and see everyone sing along in praise to God. i miss secondary school. i miss the teachers. i miss the life of secondary school. i miss the times i had clowning around the classroom with nigey,josh,quek,fats,cj,chandra,wayne and the rest of the class. i miss playing pranks on mr chia. i miss visting mrs tan, mr lee and mr azmy in the pe department. i miss studying ss.
i miss roti prata. i miss thosai. i miss teh tarik. i miss newton sambal stingray. i miss newton hokkien mee. i miss geylang hokkien mee. i miss geylang beef hor fun. i miss tau hway. i miss tau suan. i miss laksa. i miss mee soto. i miss crystal jade xiao la mian long bao. i miss chicken rice. i miss the fragrant rice from the chicken rice. i miss mee pok with extra chilli. i miss bak chor mee. i miss indian rojak. i miss chinese rojak. i miss wanton mee. i miss my mothers cooking. i miss my grandmothers cooking. i miss hor fun. i miss hot plate black pepper venison. i miss vis-a-vis,some french restaurant. i miss holland v food. i miss sicc food where owen my buddy works at. i miss mos burger. i miss barker canteen food. i miss ice kacang. i miss the malay peanut cake. i miss mooncake.
i miss orchard. i miss the times genxian and eric and i clowned around in orchard. i miss the times the three of us were inseperable. i miss lido. i miss the countless movies at watched at lido. i miss wisma. i miss the times i studied at wisma coffee club for my Os with genxian and eric. i miss lucky plaza. i miss playing pool at mambo at lucky plaza. i miss bishan. i miss playing soccer at RI. i miss eating teppenyaki at junction 8 with the soccer people or with owen. i miss angmokio. i miss the times i went to play arcade with hoon. i miss hoon who was a second older brother to me and hes in ns now and i havent spoken to him in months. i miss yiochukang cos thats where home is. i miss holland v cos it reminds me of acjc. i miss acjc. i miss the acjc girls. i miss the acjc guys. i miss the acjc memories. i miss kallang. i miss barker tennis training. i miss going to kfc at kallang after training.
i miss cheap sms. i miss cheap phone calls. i miss having my parents call me when im out to check if im fine. i miss being annoyed at them. i miss my mum asking me if ive eaten dinner or not. i miss buying bak kwa for my grandma. i miss bak kwa. i miss buying kfc for my grandma. i miss chatting with my grandma every saturday afternoon when shes here for the weekend. i miss my other grandma. i miss the fact that though i dont see her much she still loves me alot. i miss her words of wisdom. i miss laoshi, my chinese tuition teacher who taught me since i was 7. i miss the pineapples or pomelos he would bring. i miss the breakfast he used to buy for me and my bro when he came over for morning class. i miss the times he brought us out for lunch. i miss learning chinese idioms like ban men nong fu and ying shui si yan.
most importantly, i miss you two. the only two girls i have ever liked. the two that have taken up the last four years of my life. i miss you two.
"heck aren't you a parcel energy?" :)
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10:17 PM
Thursday, May 06, 2004
heyhey haha hello everyone
haha music is damn powerful, wouldnt you agree?haha well there are some specific songs which just bring me back to a certain time in my life and its life how amazing a particular song can bring back images of the past and moments that you once cherished.
like 'iris' by the googoodolls brings me back to probably my upper primary school days? cos my bro and i would sing it all the time. it reminds me of times when we were both still rather little and had little worries and stuff. he was probably 12-13 then. now hes 19, such times wont ever come back.
and then like err five's 'keep on moving' reminds me of the end of primary6 when i went to auckland. so fun mann cos that song was damn popular that time and everytime in the car, it would be playing on the radio so whenever i hear that song, the beauty of auckland comes back to my mind, so thats another example.
haha 'back here' by bbmak. two people come to my mind, genxian and eric. the three of us once sang that song and recorded it and it sounded damn good so yeah those people come to my mind when i hear that song. we recorded that song in my house when they came over to study during the prelims and o level period and like i said before, that was one hell of an enjoyable time, spending time with my 2 best friends in a crucial period of our lives. wont change a single thing from that period man.
haha the whole of busted's 2nd album reminds me of last november/december. a period around there. i just bought the cd and i was listening to it and well someone was going through a tough time then and i messaged that person like the whole day sorta thing, to cheer that person up. so yeah any busted song from the 2nd album reminds me of that brilliant period, where it rained almost everyday and it sure as hell was cold!
lemme see,haha 'leaving on a jet plane' reminds me of the weeks before i left when i heard that song and cried everytime i heard it. how i spent my last weeks trying to spend every little precious minute with the few important people to me, my family and my friends.
haha 'blurry','she hates me','perfect' and 'semi charmed life'. when i performed at a club for the very first time, haha one of my best nights ever. everything just seemed to go well that night. had by best friends supporting me, as well as something else. :P
ahha ok la thats enough for tonight, when i think of other songs with specific memories sketched with them i'll tell you again.
anyway, five's 'until the time is through' always reminds me of the times i went out with slanty. haha take care everyone.
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9:21 PM
