Friday, November 16, 2007
someday i'l find my way, through the darkness you left behindbut for now i'll stay right here, let it run over, run all over mewatch the blue skies greywherever you went, whatever you'd bei'd give the rest of my life, to find you with meyou left without words, i didn't get to say byethings just keep getting worse, without you by my sidewith everyday that passes by, i cross out another that you're not in my lifethe pillow we shared it still smells of you, i can even hear the songs that you used to sing tooas well fell asleepwherever you went, whatever you'd bei'd give the rest of my life, to find you with meyou left without words, i didn't get to say byethings just keep getting worse, without you in my lifeand all the promises we made, too lateand all the problems from our pastsall them my mistakesi'd change if i just could
lights off, pyjamas on
11:55 PM
no doubt the last few weeks have been quite difficult. in fact, pretty unbearable would still be quite an understatement. leaving melbourne was always going to be tough without the added weight of excess emotional baggage. but, always needa have to look on the positives. we can always wish and hope, but also in the meantime we should never neglect everyday occurences that do actually bring a small to our faces.
so in that spirit, i will recollect the things that have happened lately that have managed to make me content. the last two saturdays were spent shopping with weian, which was a throwback to my days in trinity, where we had time and money haha. somewhere along the way, other commitments over the years have resulted in a total cessation of such activities, like studies, work and girlfriends (hehehe) but something's in life you can pick up right where you left off. good thing was that we even managed to purchase some stuff albeit on a budget ha. both occasions we ended having coffee at brunettis, another sign that somethings you never grow old off.
on wednesday, it was pretty surreal because chances are it would be the last time i ever play soccer in melbourne. haha something that i have done religiously over my four years here, and it finally ended with a 2-on-2 match. i wouldnt have had it any other way.
today was a pretty good day, if only for the wonderful dinner i had with dan at shoya. not to mention to crazily pretty waitress sigh. food was good, company was great, and it was just good sharing quality time with the brother who i will see minimally of next year. sometimes it's great to have so many friends and a great crowd around but other times, just a person who really matters can have so much more meaning.
so yes, i probably missed out a couple more significant events that i will jot down here when i do remember. i think my chatterbox is spoilt so i needa replace it so tat can leave me messages haha. and i finally embark on what is my last week in melbourne, it will get more and more surreal. i can only hope the memories will never fade away.
i'm off to sydney in an hour's time so if anyone needs me urgently, send me a text. otherwise, you'll hear from me again sooner rather than later. gabriel out.
lights off, pyjamas on
11:36 PM
