Friday, December 31, 2004

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Thursday, December 30, 2004

i havent exercised my brainy brain brain in a loooong while. but i just did. and im quite tired now.

you see... im writing an album from scratch. and im hoping to finish it by 5th january. and i doubt i will cause if i do a rushed job, the songs arent likely to turn out as good. but if i dont hurry, i wont finish it by the 5th of january, and thats a very significant date. but i decided im gonna take my time, cause im very particular about quality control. goodness knows how many of my songs have been dumped down the drain either cos they're too cheesy, boybandish, poor tempo.. you get my drift.

this album's gonna be meaningful, really. note that im not writing a song, but an ALBUM. thats gonna be like at least erm 8 songs. MINIMUM 8 songs. i wrote one thats almost done tonight (dear song for a dear girl), and half of an old one(no title yet). i wrote the words for one, no music yet, but this one(january) has some really good ideas on it, so im damn sure it'll be good. and i had a good idea on this one which i just came up with(my sense of humour) which hasnt materialised but i promise you it will! and aside from this 4 there are lotsa junk material and crap sequences i just recorded down not too long ago, in hope one of them will turn out good. as well as 2 piano songs. so as you can see, im on my way to my first album.

and sponsors are very welcome. i promise i'll put your name down in "my thank yous" on the lyrics sheet. but really, if i do manage to write this album finish successfully, and in time or not, theres one person i would like to thank alot. dont knoe if she regularly reads this but anyway...

sam. samantha. the musician from kl who one day is gonna be my supporting guitarist in my live band. thanks for always believing in me, even though i havent produced the goods yet. somehow, you see TALENT in me which i myself dont see. somehow you encourage me to pursue music more than anyone has ever done. cause for someone who has a big big dream, living in a messed up society where no one believes theres a future in music, having someone believe in you can go a long way in builiding up confidence. and you have been the one building up my confidence, for my big big dream. we're not even that close but what the hell, it sure hasnt stopped you from being a huge pillar of encouragement has it? thanks a million really :)

haha shit la. im not cut out to be a musician. they thank 200 people in a few short paragraphs. i only thanked one person and thats one rather long paragraph. haha what the hell am i rambling about? im outta here, gabriel out!

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

and before i forget

HAPPY 17TH GN SHUMIN!

hope you had a great one :)
and i would have put a photo of us up cept that its too difficult for me to figure out how to work it. so forgive me.

anyway today was pretty cool. went town and met fatty ryan ho. went to find lennard and moses and after the haircut, went to wisma foodcourt for lunch. chatted awhile, before lennard and moses went to do homework haha so fats and i caught kungfu hustle, which was an absolute waste of money. i honestly DIDNT enjoy it. well i did laugh out loud a few times but it was SO damn stupid, it was a complete waste of $6.50.
so im back home now.
same old brand new me.



sleeping in the tv room tonite cos im gonna wake up at 4 later to watch the manu-villa match. go united!

past few days have been spent at home. got out of the house abit todae to do groceries and lunch with my mum, before going for my doctor's appointment. dan's back for the day cos hes going to a different camp tomorrow for the day for training so at least i got to see him for the night.

this is damn mundane la. i dont like people who smile and be nice to you, but have something against you behind your back. i mean if we're friends and you got something wrong with me, then tell it to me. but wait. maybe you dont even treat me as a friend. whatever. you know who you are really. if there's even a tinge of guilt, its you.

in God's name we forgive.

in God we trust.

shes got me walking on this boulevard of broken dreams.

Monday, December 27, 2004

alright i just felt that i wanted to talk about God. not just cause its Christmas, i just happened to be developing lotsa stuff on this topic later. yeah so i understand if youre not gonna read this if it doesnt appeal to you. skip this post then, come back tomorrow.

but yeah, its so blatant to see how much God has blessed us all, especially in the wake of the earthquake and tidal waves overcoming south asia and the regio around india. and the fact that we're smack right around the area, but have not been affected due to "surrounding land-masses" is a result of sheer luck. and surely we have to thank God we're living where we are, unaffected by all this, and not somewhere else and run the risk of getting gravely injured.

i would like to bring up one of my favourite footballers, although many non-football fans wont knoe him. his one of lennard's favourites too and he's called kaka. before you think im gonna give you a player bio, then dont fret. i promise you this is linked. kaka is just like an average you and me. he's rather young, 22, which im sure can be referred to as "our generation". he's from brazil but unlike most of them brazilians living in semi-poverty, his family was well-off and affluent. as you can see, he is a youngster who well definitely face all the kinds of distractions and temptations you and i face. desire for popularity, search for his identity, and a desire to have freedom and what not. but the difference between him, and majority of us, is he doesnt buckle under the pressure of peers and society today. his favourite drink is water, his favourite colour is white, and his favourite book? the Bible.
i quote a recent interview he gave in a magazine, where he described the Bible as "complicated, but the more you read, the more you start to understand something deeper within the stories, something that talks about yourself, because underneath it all the Bible talks about everything. You can find whatever you're looking for"

This young man, who turns 23 in 2005, is a living testament of the ability to not be blinded by fame, fortune and materialistic pursuits. he is handsome, and has been chosen by Giorgio Armani to model his clothes, he is sponsored by adidas, and he is playing for one of the biggest teams in the world. while often, many footballers stray due to the many distractions a life as a celebrity comes with, kaka is someone who is an amazing exception. he is the reason why i despise people like david beckham, who happens to be the epitome of someone who has been blinded by the bright lights of stardom.

over 2 years ago in the 2002 world cup final, kaka was part of the brazil team which overcame germany to win the world cup. and when the rest of the team burst into rapturous celebrations, kaka was nowhere to be found. until the camera zoomed in one a corner of the pitch, where kaka along with two other players were seen kneeling on the pitch in a huddle, and they were praying. they were giving thanks on national tv, for millions to see. the first thing they did after winning the most coveted trophy in football was not to celebrate their amazing abilities which helped them accomplish the feat. nope, they knew the person responsible was God. he was the one who had given them their abilities and talents, the one who had planned this out. after their prayer, they joined the rest of the brazil team in the celebrations. but not before they once again stated their gratitude and faith in God. while the other two pulled out shirts saying "Jesus Loves You", kaka sported a tshirt saying "I Belong To Jesus". and that was not the only time. in may this year when his team milan won the italian league, kaka wore a similar shirt with the same message. its the same story over and over again. its one that i will never get tired of. whenever there's any cause or reason for celebration, kaka knows its God he thanks the most.

In the same interview, he said the following to his interviewer. " For me, being able to play this game is a gift from God. I'll never stop thanking Him for the privilege of being a footballer. I think everyone receives a gift. You are a journalist, and everyone has a talent. Mine is football. I love it and i thank God, because when i wake up in the morning, i'm happy"

and really, kaka is an inspiration to me, and many others. although yeah, i'll never make the grade as a professional, it still doesnt change the fact that God has at least blessed me with the ability to have a kick around, and the passion for the game. least of all, He has blessed me with two legs to run about with.

with the amazing grace of God, it has been 3 weeks and 2 days since i last smoked. and for all those who said its impossible to quit smoking, i implore you to think twice. take this from someone who used to do a pack of reds a day. its possible.

anything and everything is possible in the name of Jesus.

and if you have any problem with this post i just wrote, dont find me. have a word with my God.



today was an extremely exhausting day. but nonetheless it was pretty darn fun.

first and foremost, i am so happy to have went to church today cause it felt so good. and i am going to make it a point to go for 8am service every sunday from now on. to discipline myself to wake up early, and just to get my sundays off to a great start.

soccer after that was alright. the other team were pretty strong, and considering this was our first game together in over a year, losing 0-1 wasnt that bad. and im seriously injury prone. sprained right ankle, fell on my hand while making a sliding tackle and spraining three fingers, and to add icing on the cake, cramped my right calf when i landed after heading. so all in all, my bed smells of muscle rub now cos i just applied it all over while lying in bed.

came home showered, went to town for lunch and ate a feast at crystal jade. xiao long bao, la mien, chilli wanton, etc. yummers. walked around with dan, an and nala for a wee while. met owen in town and we cabbed down to laura's house.

so the get together was really nice. and the food was SUPERB! thanks laura elizabeth chia once again for the invite heehee :P it was nice just sitting there eating the good food and talking nonsense.

came home watched football, and fell asleep halfway but here i am now.

all in all, a tiring but contented day.

all because you made it special.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

christmas todae was basically a lazy lazy day. woke up around 12plus to go for family(mum's side) lunch. went there till 3. not really close to my relatives from my mum's side but it was ok, nice to see everyone once again, considering i dont really see them much. came home and slept till 9pm. woke up had dinner and stoned till now. so basically, you can see why today was honestly a lazy day.

still taking in the aftermath of last night. haha ok its not really an aftermath but wow! haha crazy really. haha its good really. im very happy and if you dont knoe why, youre not meant to knoe why. actually, its love haha.

match on tomorrow at 11. gotta sleep soon if not i'll be sleep-dribbling. determined to go church tomorrow and i shall. there's been so much to give thanks for lately. havent been to church on a sunday for more than half a year, and thats something im ashamed of. considering all that God has blessed me with so far. results that were definitely undeserved from the amount of studying i put in. offers from universities which ensures the continuation of my education. and more importantly, a purpose in life. and thats not the biggest of things to give thanks for. theres also the fact that He gave us life. i AM going to church tomorrow. i promise you that.

looking forward to tomorrow. church, soccermatch, christmas dinner at laura's. haha my schedule sounds like a real professional's.

sureshot.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

merry christmas to all :)

so silver font cos i like my christmas trees silvery, although red and green is still as lovely. christmas eve was alrite, spent almost the whole day in town with mwong, came home, finished up abit on my project, then had to rush to town to meet dan, nala, yuwei, kevin and an(basically the soccer peeps) for dinner at this jap restaurant at taka. it was so darn expensive but the food was terrific. and $30 per person means free flow of beer haha i was almost gone when we walked out of the restaurant at 9plus. came back home and in my state i slept, to sober up. woke up, dan and nala went to rouge.

wei an drove himself back, then yuwei took ever, and then passed it over to mun, who met us at my house. and the the nightmare before christmas started. yuwei's gear came out of the gear box so we were perpetually stuck in second gear, which meant no reversing. it was horrible and i still had something to do!

but alls well that ends well. there was a nightmare before christmas, but on christmas itself, things turned out pretty darn awesome. and its true. i really had no fear or apprehension. cause it was from the bottom of my heart.

merry christmas everyone :)

Friday, December 24, 2004

merry christmas eve everybody :)

yesterday was pretty fun. met adam eric shumin and kren and went to buy groceries. and then adam eric and shumin went to seat some ride so i waited with kren then we went back without kren and cooked dinner. which was very fun. owen came over after going to zouk for awhile and mwong came over too and we played mahjong, our favourite pasttime.

went shopping today and finally, got most of my presents today. still have a couple left to get tomorrow and ive gotta go the minute the shops open to beat the throngs of people i foresee will have last minute shopping to do. much thanks to yuwei for accompanying me and driving me around haha. we came back and wrapped presents together, and then my parents had friends over so i had to do some entertaining which was really boring.

just received a letter which was dated 16th december but was posted to the wrong address. offer from monash university :D makes me a very happy boy. its a good start to christmas i must say. and i hope come tomorrow night, i'll still be as happy as i am tonight. i really wish and hope so. this christmas, i pray, will be a special one.

for God so loved the world, he sent His Son down more than 2000 years ago, so that he all will be saved. And that is the true meaning of Christmas. not giving, nor receiving. not delicious turkey and nice log cakes. but GIVING THANKS for a chance for eternal life. amen.

when you say what is from the bottom of your heart, then there wont be any fear.
and tonight, on Christmas Eve, im not going to have any fear, cause im going to say whats from the bottom of my heart.
no fear, just like He who knew what laid ahead of Him when He was born into this world around this time centuries ago.
no fear, cause theres nothing to fear, when its from the bottom of your heart.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

im so pathetic at shopping for presents. i spent nearly erm 4 hours walking around town today and i bought one item. who was that item for? me. shit man and with 2 days to go excluding christmas eve, i fear i might not get down in time to getting everybody presents. which sucks mightily. cause this the season for giving. it shouldnt bother how many presents you receive. cause all that matters its the giving of presents to the people who matter to you, to let them knoe they're in your hearts in this festive period of time.

ran into lots of people today, most shocking of all was karen. haha which was a spooky coincidence cause i happened to sms her an hour earlier. sheesh. so after that, dinner at bugis with xue which was pretty nice. and then a nice long cab home which was perfect for resting.

interview with the guy from la trobe uni today, probably getting my offer tomorrow. but damn it, its 45 mins drive from the city. how am i going to meet up with everyone regularly! and i just dont think i could stand having to familiarise myself to new surroundings again. not to mention new people. i pray when i call RMIT tomorrow, they'll be hardworking enough to process my application and hopefully i get in. i pray hard, i really do.

and its christmas time once more. and i imagine if i could spend christmas with you. under the stars. nice dinner at home. christmas lights dancing around the tree. presents all nicely tucked beneath the branches. a glass of wine each as the night winds down. carols playing in the background. we got nothing to do while waiting for 12 o'clock to chime so we take retarded photos together. do stupid things together. i play the song i just wrote for you and its really horrible, but you nod approvingly. soon we get tired of all this so we just sit down in each others embrace. we're about to doze off when before you know it, its twelve. i wish you merry christmas and i get a kiss on the cheek in return.

shit im sorry i must have dozed off and gone dreaming again. anyway, i just had my christmas dream and it was pretty nice. and you're laughing and calling me a dreamer once again. yeah shut the hell up. cos farrell once said, "a dream may just be a dream but it costs us nothing". so thats that. im quite happy now.

im dreaming of sleeping next to you
im feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town
im counting my sheep
and each one that passes is another dream to ashes and they all fall down

as i lay me down tonight
i close my eyes and what a beautiful sight

im sleeping to dream about you
and im so tired
of having to live without you
but i dont mind
im sleeping to dream without you
and im so tired

its just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying to sleep at night

Monday, December 20, 2004

going through a pretty rough patch right now. but i knoe i'll get through. thanks to 2 people. dan my beloved bro and eric my bud. thanks really the two of you, you dont knoe how much i appreciate it.

im just feeling sad. miserable. and tired. and i knoe i'll never be perfect. but for every person you recognise as superior to me, why dont you look at the other ten who are inferior to me. yeah maybe i missed 100% by 32marks. but cant u think of it as i missed 0% by a whopping 68 marks. nope, cause everything i am will never be good enough for you.

its times like that i wish i had someone by my side, who would support me through everything. its bad enough i have to trouble eric, and dan had to call from camp to sort things out. i dont wanna be a burden, and with that someone special, i wouldnt feel bad troubling them with this kinda problems, cos we're meant to help each other out in times of need.

yeah but what the hell am i going on about? half of why im so damn miserable is cause my special someone doesnt find me all that special. ahh shit this is screwed up. i thank God for my friends. but sometimes, i just wish he'd make a way for me to you.

hold on. if you feel like letting go.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

today was fun fun fun once again. azad came over around 545. he was meant to be here early but mr smartypants decided to take the bus instead of the taxi and ended up getting lost. jammed for a solid one hour and 15min, that was a blast. played all the nice punk songs. haha i cant wait to jam again. then we mrt-ed down to town and went for lido to eat dinner. had taco bell and i enjoyed chatting over dinner la. had a good talk with azad and i'll always be here for my zaddy. played pool haha (4-1!) and then we just walked around. went to lido again to get a drink and guess who was on the escalator down? who else but owen haha so he joined us and we started walking around. we went one round all the way to cine and around heeren and i almost died laughing when owen tried to learn malay from azad. i almost died especially when azad got owen to say the malay phrases in front of the malay woman! azad as i said, you teach him all the wrong things.

went back cos yuwei and hoon were over watching football with dan. yuwei fetched me from the mrt station after sending wei an back and i had a blast watching football with them. just like last year and the year before. and yuwei went out to buy prata for us. so all in all, a great nite. and dan went to sleep early so now yuwei and hoon are sleeping in my room. and im dying from yuwei's jokes.


its wrong. heaven knoes its wrong.
but heaven knoes i love you so much too.
all i want for christmas is you to be happy.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

so today was tiring but pretty fun. mum allowed me to stay out despite them having friends over so that was cool.

reached town around 4 and by the time i met chuin and decided to watch national treasure it was 410 and the show started at 4. we were just in time for opening credits though. first movie i was late for today. so it was a reallynice movie, and if it was this good, i sure cant wait for da vinci code to show. if im not wrong ck told me they're making it into a movie.
arranged to meet laura after that so went to find her at taka. walked to cine and the only time for incredibles was 650 and it was already 7. so we hurriedly bought the tickets and once again arrived in time for the show. so second movie i was late for today. and i must say despite watching it for the second time, incredibles was still very very nicee!

went for dinner at marche after that, met esther, jan, kelly and liwen and sat there. it sure was uncomfortable haha thankfully later marklim and jason showed up from nowhere. and coincidentally owen was at marche too so it wasnt that funny haha. walked around later, jason kept cracking me up with his funny shit la, he is SO damn funny and we're qingtian singing buddies haha. ran into min and thankfully made up with her. im telling you its the christmas spirit :)

ok this post was started at 3am but its 5am now. owen drove over haha due to my need for attention so we had a couple of drinks and he just left la. i really am thankful for owen chong haowen. without him, i would be dead la. cos eric's always in malaysia, and azad's sleeping already and adam's on holiday, and owen is the one who always appears from nowhere at the weirdest hours. and i thank God for that. and i better get some sleep now. gabriel out!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

for everytime you say no to me, i fold a heart for you.
for everytime you dont reply a message, i write a song for you.
for every minute you take to reply, it feels like every day.
for every word i speak to you, theres a million i cant say.
for everytime you say you're sorry, i dont believe you are.
for every mile you live close to me, it still seems all so far.
for everytime you say i'm not annoying, i truly believe i am.
for everything he means to you, i wish i meant the same.
for every second i cannot sleep, every though of you makes me better.
for every happy thought of you, thats another that makes me sadder.
for everytime time i ask you out, my hopes get really high.
for every reply you say you're tired, it drops me from the sky.
for every memory from january, there's another one of you.
for every happy dream i have, i dream of just us two.

for every thing between us now, i wish it was like before.
for every thing thats simply you, i love you more and more.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

today's alright i guessed. overslept once again. thankfully wei an didnt pick me up otherwise he would have easily waited an hour and a half. in the end yuwei came over and fetched me at 1030plus and then over to an's place so we reached roti prata around 11 and had a nice brunch. the two of them came back after that and we were looking at photos. haha nice all the memories of the soccer team. house parties, clubbing, 7 people turning up for training at bishan park, scorpion ko. nice :)

dropped wei an back home and then went to play squash with yuwei. if you're a nobody, never play against someone who happens to captain his school. my butt got whipped by yuwei all 6 sets we played. haha but all in all it was a good workout. now if only i could get better. hopefully, tennis, tabletennis and squash this sunday with erickychang. keep your fingers crossed it works out, im looking forward to it.

after squash yuwei came home and we chilled awhile more, aided by many moments of intense hysteria. "if your friend is ayumi then my friend is takeshi" haha only yuwei is gonna get this but i just had to jot it down. haha damn funny. he went home around 6, off to sicc with mum and mama for dinner. ate a bollocks lot of food, couldnt finish my meegoreng, shared unagi,rojak, sashimi and 2 plates of soft-shell crab. im a glutton and i need to lose weight. number 1 so i look more presentable and number 2 so i can do more pullups.

suprise by clement hearing the voice of hwh! haha was great talking to wenhao hope we get to catch up tomorrow yes. i got so much more to tell you.

sometimes i wish i had the courage to let got to the things i cherised most. and that i can learn that theres a time to hold on and a time to let go. but i dont have the strength, nor the bravery to do so. i will always hold on to you, even to the last thread hanging, plainly for the fact im not strong enough. and plainly for the fact you're all i ever wanted.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

so the reality has sunk in that i wont be in melbourne uni next year. and i might not even be in melbourne. but it doesnt matter really. just gonna take things as they come. cos im sure its all gonna turn out good in the end. in God we trust.

if you never buy a ticket, how can you expect to win the lottery?
if you never eat it, how can you be sure its not gonna taste good?
if you never run, how can you know you wont make it?

if i never stepped up to take a freekick, how would i ever have known i can score them?
if i never tried writing a song, how would i ever have known they could impact people?

if i never go after you, how am i to know if i would succeed?
if i never had a chance to hold you, how am i to know if you're not the one?

Monday, December 13, 2004

mum and dad are hope, thus ending my 6 day holiday. heh. but it was good to see them again and they were nice enough to buy prata home for me :)
today was stoned. i just lazed around the whole day, watched a couple of games of football.

if youre wondering why im up so early, its cause i havent slept. waited all nite long for 5am so i could check my results online. almost dozed off. and now that i got my results, i cant go back to sleep. lets just say it wasnt ideal case scenario.

still everything happens for a reason. but truth be told, the excuses for that phrase sure as hell are running out.

"one of these days, i'll find a way back to you"

Sunday, December 12, 2004

saturday was a pretty good day. well so i slept the whole day away. woke up around 6 plus, and eric called for dinner so yeah, cabbed down to holland v for dinner with eric, lee, mwong and mrs tan, our pe hod. ate at nydc and she treated us so thanks mrs tan! though she doesnt read blogs haha.
went for dessert at thai express after that before heading down to tango's for drinks. and thanks to whichever idiot wanting dessert, we missed happy hour. haha but that was alrite. drinks were good albeit expensive but it was all fun just chilling there. claire dropped by with nicole, samantha and amanda, before adam came. the guys then came over to my place for a night of karaoke and mahjong. haha it was damn funny man. you dont ever wanna hear the 5 of us singing together. it sounded awful although adam pulled off a pretty mean duet of "barbie girl" with mwong. haha. then on to mahjong but we only managed 3 games cos everyone was looking out for the hot schoolgirl in "the big hit" which adam was watching. all in all, a retarded but fun night.

oh yeah also got to catch up with my favourite quek-kia earlier in the day. we went to play soccer at 9am in the morning. haha just the two of us, me and lennard. and then i also saw him later at holland v at nite. that was coincidental haha. okok im sounding like a bimbo *adam mwong eric inside joke*

"today i saw a bird!! it was green!! but it wasnt light green!! nor was it dark green!! i think it was blue!!"

haha you guys knoe who im talking about :P gabriel out

Saturday, December 11, 2004

so i didnt sleep the whole of thursday night. just didnt. went down and cooked 2 packets of mee goreng, must have woke up my grandma up cos she came down. later at 630am she asked me to follow her for her morning walk so i brought a ball along and started kicking along the way. cabbed down all the way to pasir ris mrt to see imran off to tekong. hope everything will be fine.
went down to clement's place and we took turns to play the guitar, and i also met his ultra hyper dog. cabbed back, so in total i spent $30 on taxi. then fell asleep, woke up at 1am. i was meant to meet eric, adam and mwong. shit i better sms one of them soon. yeah so i woke up around 130am, watched tv and ate till now, its 7am.

got nothing planned todae, someone ask me out please. oh yeah meeting dave and a few other of dan's friends in the evening i think. maybe i'll find someone to catch a movie with in the afternoon.

yesterday's gone. it belongs to the past. and it stays in the past. what matters is the present. as for the future, we'll leave it for later to decide. but the present is right now. and right now all i want is you.

Friday, December 10, 2004

this post is in black cos thats the mood im feeling right now. not too right.

so today was nice. followed by grandma to church at novena, my aunty fetched us with my pri1 cousin. waited for them awhile then went over to eat wee nam kee chicken rice. really good. after that came home to play guitar for awhile cos my aunty wanted to hear, before she sent me to town where i met adam and azad. ran into clement and chell too. we basically stoned around really. didnt do much. didnt do anything at all. bought apple pie back for my grandma cos she wanted. haha it sucks that my parents are away cos now i have to run errands for my grandma. not that im complaining thought. wei an drove over at 6 to pick me up for dinner with kevin. kevin knocked on my door at 7. i overslept once again and wei an had waited for an hour. haha i felt awful. went to eat roast duck and chicken rice so i ate chicken rice twice in a day.

came back, something made me feel really miserable. went to kick a ball in the carpark at 12am for 45 mins or so. felt really better after that. and now im in my room writing songs. im gonna write a whole album of songs for her. something like maroon 5's "songs about jane". adam called it "songs about ******" haha. doesnt matter really.

right now, i really just need someone to believe in me.

"now im home, im back for you
back to let you hear the things you never knew"

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

yeah first and foremost, the previous post was by guest blogger eric chang. who was at my house yesterday with mwong and adam.

so on monday night i wrote that i hoped tuesday nite would be better. and last night was really fun. the guys were meant to come over at 1pm but i overslept till 5pm (haha overslept by alot yar) so they came around 6. all showered and dressed up before we decided to stone haha. cos we were waiting for other people to call and stuff (ie leeren) so we started drinking and then we ordered pizza. after our brilliant wasting of time, we finally left at 930. cabbed down straight to zouk.

after a long hassle of trying to get ids, pondering which id to use, and trying to get tyron to get us in without id, we decided to not go in because it was too much of a bother. and if something is too much of a bother, its not worth doing. but of course it was nice cause i got to see all those people i havent seen in ages.

so after that, seven of us, eric, owen, adam, mwong, nigey, ryanho and me went to thomson for roti prata, and our bill amounted to 35 bucks. haha nigey had like 5 kosongs we ate like madmen cause we stood outside zouk so long deciding that it was tiring. and after that ryanho and nigey went home, but the rest came over. started drinking and playing drinking games, and owen honestly is horrible at them. he sucks at even his own game haha ok im kidding snoops! then adam's 3 friends came over until like 6 plus before going home and now its 7 plus and its left me, marc, adam and eric.

and all three of them are sleeping now haha. oh yeah and adam, marc and i did the most dumbass thing lately. we walked the adam's 3 friends and owen to the main road. and then we took a cab back in. which costs us $2.40. haha ohwells we were tired.

and now i shall stop here cause the guys are all sleeping soundly and i would like to as well. gabriel out :)

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

-guest blogger in the house-

wow.. i'm blogging
this is amazing haha
i think i should say something to all those who made this possible..
firstly i'd like to thank my bestfriend shumin, i love you.
next gabtan for giving me his password.. which is for sale btw all those interested please call 81004209.. bestlooking bro,.. secretary of the year:) adam kuang qiang syon jamil.
next is marc wong for letting me use his brother's room:)
heh
and to all those outthere i forgot i'm sorry i love you all
haha i feel so rockstarish...
haha this is damn fun it hink i'm gonna get a blog hahah
anyways.. errr what do i do... erm
were all at gab's house and were jamming
sorta... adam is walking around nude
his chest is damm big hes bloody muscular now la haha
only person missing is mighty muscular owen
haha
i don't know what to say
hi there everyone..
signing off
-guest blogger-
i'm gay
dmanit



today was quite a fun day really.

had dental in the morning and went for my haircut after that, which was very bad. i insist i look like a giraffe now! but the rest say its alright so hopefully im wrong and thy're right.

met chuin for lunch at mos and then caught the incredibles, which i thought was called the invincibles. really really good show. entertaining, light hearted yet meaningful. i give it four and a half stars. went to disturb titus for awhile cos he was working at mambo at heeren, before going to coffee bean at paragon to meet lianne and her friends. soon it was a huge table of people from all sorts.

eric came with mwong and they were gonna play pool but i waited for adam before heading to mambo billards. not bad today. lost to adam 1-2, lost to eric 1-2, then won adam 4-2 after eric and mwong left. went to buy tako pachi, before cabbing home.

see it was a fun day. today was the funnest day i had since i got back. i hope tomorrow will be even better.

gabriel out!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

words really cannot express what im feeling right now. its more than sadness. its just tragic.

im home and before you take out your party poppers and balloons, dont. yeah i mean its great to be back, but it would have been greater to stay in melbourne.
alright, i apologise for being such an ass. its gonna be great seeing all you people again alrite? im sincerely looking forward to catching up with everyone, its just that, i feel like the melbourne chapter of my life hasnt been written finished yet, and im bringing it to a premature end. because i didnt study enough again (what a surprise!!) and im gonna screw up my results and not end up in a university in melbourne and waste one year of my life.

ohwells someone really dear told me to just pray to God cos thats all theres left to do. so i shall :)

the weather's really hot, i swear i have a headache now plainly because of the sweltering heat. and its making this post very disjointed. so today was the first time i went out since i got back last night. met up with adam, mwong and smily and had 3 games of pool. won adam cos he hit the black ball in, won smily cos he hit the black ball in, lost to marc cos he hit the black ball in when he was meant to. heh. wait till rickyboy comes back and whips all our asses.

but i AM happy to be home. going for my routine sunday morning breakfasts tomorrow with pa,mum and mama(my paternal grandma) which adam and azad called G-MA. haha gosh that was a long time ago in february, during first 3 months time, when it was so common for a bunch of them to come over just to mahjong and stuff. hope those days return during the hols. i really hope they do.

i slept till 5pm today. and now i cant sleep. so im gonna continue reading 'angels and demons'. and i bet once im done i really wont be able to sleep. but anyway, i wish i could put in words the feelings i have now school has come to an end. but theres just too many emotions to capture, and its nearly impossible. so i'll leave it for another time when i can find the words.

but for now let me say, nothing in my wildest imagination could ever have prepared me for what an amazing past 9 and a half months i had. the joys and the sorrows. the ups and the downs. they were all part of a learning curve, and im glad for that. cos im sure ive came out of this episode a changed person. both mentally and emotionally.

ive reached a stage where im becoming an adult. and im not liking it one bit at all.
"being grown up, isnt half as fun as growing up
these are the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right"
-the ataris/inthisdiary

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