Tuesday, June 28, 2005

oh yes yes.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY to CLAIRE TEO WEI LING!

thanks for being more than just a friend, and for always helping me through all the shit i managed to get myself into. i couldnt have asked for someone more to guide me and support me, so i guess id just put a little public something to let you know how much all you have done for me means to me. you're the best listening ear in the world, and dont worry. your secret that you cry during "a walk to remember" will always be safe with me. oops.

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
9:04 PM

4th day back home, not too bad really. saturday and sunday were spent lazing at home, recovering from the visit from the germs.
monday, watched mr and mrs smith with weian and dan. pretty good show, but i really really think i need to see an anger therapist. i almost killed the guy in front of me cause he was being a real twat. he turned back and asked me to stop talking and i said "yes, when the show starts". and then he said "no" and so i said "yes". and then he turned around and i started cursing him from behind non-stop really, and yar those who know me know my choices of words can get really bad. i seriously almost asked him to step outside after the movie, but cause the movie kinda cheered me up so it would have been weird to get back into the mood for fighting.

today was spent with ryan, nigey, marklim and jan was with us too. pretty fun at lido just relaxing and playing all kinds of games ryan didnt know how to play. black magic became red magic and then lv magic, fatbastard magic, nokia magic, and still ryan didnt get how to play it. bloody dumbass haha. so then they left and i got my haircut.

yesterday was a pretty moody day. suddenly during pool i started thinking about you, and that just ruined my mood. well it didnt exactly RUIN my mood cause you never ruin my mood, its just changed my mood and so i didnt wanna play.
and today what with the guys making fun about celery juice, and cheaper by the dozen. wasnt bad, but it was just weird.

and i drove by your house last night, and stayed outside your gate for like 5 mins. and i didnt dare call you. because that would be stupid. but i wanted to, because i wanted to see you. cause i havent seen you for more than 4 months. but i didnt have the courage to do it. or rather, i didnt have the heart to do that to you. yar i just wanted you to know.

not like you would know anyway.

heh heh yar holidays holidays nothing's gonna affect my mood.

toodles.

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
8:48 PM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

back to a relaxed schedule of living.
back to stress-free days.
and most importantly.
back home.

hello everyone! :)

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
4:56 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

happy belated birthday to my stepsister nina ramesh on the 10th of june.

and a happy belated to my sister adelene ang on the 11th of june.

and a congratulations to my mother claire teo for getting into melbourne uni.

its been a good week for the family.

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
4:05 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

a very belated public:

-happy 18th birthday to my precious shah azad on the 31st of may

-happy 18th birthday to my awesome lim jin li on the 4th of june

-happy 18th birthday to my darling koh chuin ying on the 5th of june

and a punctual

-happy 18th birthday to my priceless ong chen tat on the 8th of june

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
6:36 AM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

i just went to check my assignment results so far, and things arent exactly going as planned. to be honest with you, they are fucked up. and i dont normally use vulgarities on my blog, so you can guess how fucked up they actually are. so yup im not exactly in a good mood, so pardon me for awhile.

how come everyone can always motivate themselves to work hard, except for me. i do not know why i am such a fucking lazy bugger, and it's as though i dont give a damn about my future. and to be honest with you, im not sure if thats not really the case. it's as though i think my parents' money will last me an entire lifetime so i am trouble-free for the next 60 years of my life.

sometimes i wonder if i smoke and drink so much so that i might die earlier, cause knowing im going to be a failure, i might as well die being a failure for 30 years, then being a failure for 60 years.

and yar i know who my friends are. so after this post, erm i expect people to start tagging loads of encouragement, but honestly i dont need that. cause yar the ones who really care have been encouraging me all the way, and i know who they are. so if you're only gonna start encouraging me when you know i'm not feeling too good, fuck off.

watched love actually just now. fuck.

yellowcard's one year, six months. bloody good song, and today, 5th june 05, just happens to be one year, six months.

so i shall disappear for the next two weeks in a last-ditch attempt to get my future back on track. and maybe when that's done i might come back and talk to you guys again. the people at ngflcorp dont worry, i'll still be updating things on that side. so yar, here's the next two weeks worth of "gabriel out".

oh yar.

happy one year, six months you.

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
10:04 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

alrite, sorry for having performed a disappearing act, but i'm back now.

the last week has basically mean studying at baillieu library every single day till 3am, going home, sleeping when the sun rises, and waking up around dinner time. and then eating and going to the library and the same old cycle goes on and on again. and it's gonna continue for the foreseeable future, until my exams are done. and yup i'll be coming home and it's really exciting cause it's been really quite long.

it's just quite sad that nowadays i get to see people like eric, azad, adam, owen only for a few weeks after not seeing them for 4-5 months. and like, i'm used to seeing this people almost a few times a week, if not everyday. and like back in secondary school, it's like seeing nigey, lennard, fatty ho and the rest every single day. and now it's like we all got new lives that we each are not part of. it's not a very nice feeling.

but i'm very glad to say i have done a pretty good job in maintaining my friendships, apart from like a portion who are just like, retards. the rest i must say deserve my effort in maintaining the friendship.

melbourne is undergoing the annual frenzy known as 'stocktake sale', which is the aussie version of "the great singapore sale"! so yup, i've been hit by minor shopping bug, but only because i won at the casion. haha not saying how much i won, but i bought an ipod, a new wallet, clothes, and still had the luxury of losing $700 the next night. heh heh now i cant get a new handphone cause i lost that $700 but nevermind, no hurry. there's always next time. i really wanna get either the motorola v3, or this sony ericsson one. but yeah, need to get the money first heh.

this post was rather spontaneous cause i really didnt knoe what to talk about, so i just decided to start writing and see where it takes me. not too bad for someone who hasnt blogged in more than a week, most make sure i dont get rusty. alright enough for today, i'll catch you again tomorrow.

gabriel out :)

~~lights off, pyjamas on~~
2:15 AM